All last week and whatnot I've been reading and playing FF9. I haven't been able to think of anything to write. Well and make it coherent anyway. I'll get to the worm thing in a minute. I have to say, I'm bored. Very bored. My usual pursuits just aren't doing it for me. How can you say that? The internet gives unlimited possibilities. Maybe burned out is a better word? I haven't even been going to all of my regular blog sites. A few of them yes, but not all. Of course this is just part of a cycle that I go through. I get bored with everything for a while and then pick it back up again. Hubby brough me home books from a garage sale. I must say, they were a pleasant surprise. They weren't trashy romances, but I did like them. However, I couldn't read them more than twice. That never happens. I reread about four times before I put them back down. I've found myself scanning quickly through the books. In less than an hour I've 'reread' a book lately. The process is no longer enjoyable. I hate it when I lose interest like that. Maybe I'm dissatisfied. Who knows. Don't get me wrong, I love my husband and my kids, I've just lost interest in my favorite hobbies. Being home all day I need my distractions. I go nuts without them. Of course I don't really want to go anywhere. I hate leaving the house. I think it's just that I like to feel that every once in a while, if I wanted to, I could. Maybe if this area wasn't so boring. I often wish we had a museum or zoo or something. No, getting a job won't fix that. I'd still be bored, but annoyed with all the things that go with a job. All I'm qualified for is restaraunt or grocery store work. Not that that's a bad thing. I really have no ambition per se. I remember when growing up, I touched on the idea of being either a mechanic or a doctor. Too much school needed for a doctor. I hate schoolwork, it's boring. I can't grasp the mechanisms of an engine, so that's out. If I had really wanted to do either of those things, I would have atleast tried. All I ever really wanted was to be a wife and mother. I wonder why that's looked at as a second class job these days. Too bad I'm a horrible housekeeper, I really do wish I could be better at it. Why clean it if it's gonna be trashed in 30 minutes or less? Logic, can't escape it.
On to the worms. Yesterday the kids got to go outside, it wasn't very hot out. The ground was wet and they wanted to dig a hole. Their daddy helped them with a shovel. They were fascinated with the earthworms. After Steven's wiggled he threw it. Then he grabbed another one. It was so cute. The kids can't go outside when it's past around 80°. Even in the shade, they break out into spots. I don't think their bodies process heat like they're supposed to. Even yesterday when they came back in they were hot enough to run a fever. Maybe they get it from me. I can't go out in 90° or hotter. I get sick. I can't do hot tubs either, nor hot showers. No doc has been able to explain that one. I don't think they believe me. It was suggested that they could be allergic to the sun. Only problem is they've been in the sun a lot. Only when it's too hot out do they actually spot after about 20 to 30 minutes. It looks like chicken pox when they do. They don't get itchy though.
I'm getting a little restless too. I want to leave this area. I've said it before. Now it seems that little sister may be leaving too. Talking about Texas, I guess. Her husbands a welder and he may go to school out there for underwater welding. I know, se7en had some horror stories, but hey whatever. Poor thing probably hasn't realized yet that if he does, he'll be gone for around 6 months at a time. Now with 2 small kids, that's going to be very hard. Maybe that'll make her take that final step to being all grown up. I don't think I'll ever get out of here. With a little luck, maybe we'll get a house with a decent yard. Hmm. |