...that I feel the urge to scratch. Drag your mind out of the gutter! Ha! I kill myself. This is the second post of the day, I urge ya'll to read the other one. Has a funny story about my kids in it. My Bon Jovi is on and I feel the urge... To what you ask? I'm not sure. I started to re-read one of my books, and then put music on and I find myself wanting to post again. Hmm, maybe I really do have some kind of creative 'juices'. I also have the urge to create. This has been partially fulfilled by messing with my sister's site, go check out what I did with it. I will be making a header. Also some banners for the titles on the sidebar. Ya'll know what I'm talking about. Probably some bars too. Having a little bit of trouble finding free dolphin pics that give permission for use on personal websites. I did, however, find what I thought to be the perfect background tile. I messed with it's color a bit, to make it that baby blue color she likes. You'll see what I mean. It's shade was originally a sea green-blue color. I tell ya, messing with the hue was a pain in the ass, but worth it. I also plan on making a gravatar too. I might find a cat instead of a dolphin for that one. It needs to be unique. I spent half a day yesterday to fix up her site. Most of it was searching for dolphin graphics. There's a graphics link on her sidebar ya'll should visit. Most of my visitors like the fantasy/sci fi stuff and that's what you'll mostly find there. It has the best dragons/skulls/fairies I've seen yet. Well, with the exception of what se7en comes up with. Which reminds me...
Se7en...do you have any graphics with dolphins I can use? I still can't get my damn drive to read the cd. I'm thinking about buying an Iomega cd-rw external drive I saw at wal-mart. Since I don't wanna mess with the tower, it should work better for me. You know anything about those? I really want that damn program. Did you check the disc to make sure it burned ok? I keep meaning to ask.
The 'newest' site that se7en did is in his most recent post. Lady Myles came by to visit. I commented over there after se7en announced he finished her site. I had to comment, it's awesome. The best I've seen yet. Didn't read much, but when I saw her post about a fantasy of Jack, Blade, and Big Sexy, I just had to mark her for my RSS feed. Hey, I may be married but I can still look! LMAO! Did I tell ya'll that Jack wrote a great short story the other day? Go check it out if you haven't yet. He's on my sidebar as Texas Music. It's a big secret, sparkling glitter rainbow ponies, you know. Zelda made up that name...LMAO! You ought to visit Blade Runner too. He's listed just below Jack. He's a good writer. Sporadic, but good anyway. He told on Jack...A good vomiting story. {I've never been very girly you know.} Between their police work and regular life, they don't get much time to write. *sigh* It's really too bad. They should talk Big Sexy into writing too. That'd be really great, telling on each other. Remember the 'snorting sweet n low incident? LMAO!
'Bed of Roses' is on now. Such a nice song. *sigh* Did ya'll get to read the quiz thingy I put up? It was fun! There I go running off at the mouth again, where was I?
Oh, I noticed that Trash came by today. I was excited, surely there was a new post! Sure enough. Go read it! Oh that's where I was, I mentioned Lady Myles. She commented and it took me a bit to figure out who it was. Ah, well...I'll be back there. Judy came by too. She's incognito now, moved her site and whatnot. Not sure why. I like her, she's nothing like me, she's 'girly'. LMAO! I tell ya, I've been fascinated lately by the weirdest things. Should I confess all my dark secrets? I think not! Ya'll should go visit Blackfive too. It's a milblog, but I find more news about our soldiers from there than anywhere else. He's got great causes too, no matter where you stand on the political spectrum. Now I know most of my visitors are of the polite sort, but if you're gonna be an asshole, don't go visit. Seriously! I'm not the political sort and don't wish to debate on everything. Besides, as I've said before, we DO NOT actually vote in our president, the ELECTORAL COLLEGE does, so people should really shut up about that shit. I mean really, it's basic civics. If you don't like it, vote your congressmen/senators out of office, they are the ones who let him into office, not YOU! Enough about that, I won't lecture anymore.
Brighton's having trouble with her dad. I can sooooo relate. It's not my place really, but she should tell him to go to hell and ignore his ass. I must confess, and my sisters (who do visit) know my stance on this, so no one is gonna be offended, which I would never want to do! I haven't been this happy and at peace with myself in YEARS! I told his ass what I thought and not to EVER come near me again. If I was egotistical or conceited, I could say I brought his marriage to an end, but I didn't, nor do I care. They really were good for each other. However, what they both did was inexcusable. I did all I could to protect my sisters and I can't do it anymore. I cannot go through that hell again. I did write about that very dark place, that terrifies me. One of these days, I'll post the letter I wrote to my husband after one of those episodes. It ain't pretty, let me tell ya. Did I tell you, I wasn't there with my sister when she had her baby? I really wanted to go, but I couldn't. I just couldn't. I tried to explain, I just don't have the words. I think she understood though. She said she did. She'll probably say something when she comes by. There was never anything I could do, though I tried very hard, to protect littlest (Dalyna) from the asshole. At least she isn't within reach. You know, I hope you don't answer his phone calls! You don't need his shit! How I miss grandma though. I hated putting her in the middle! I wonder if she's waiting on me to call. I don't think I can. I'm just not ready. I don't know if I'll ever be. I miss them so much. Damn it! Now I wanna cry. So thankful for my music, it says so many things for me. It calms me. I need it just as much as I need my books. I've realized now, that's what reading is for me. I need it. I think hubby realizes it too now, after the last 'spat' we had. He 'gets' me. I'm not so restless now. I've been calm for the last week. It took me a week and a half of reading my library books to calm me. I guess I worry too much. Put much more responsibility on myself than I need to. Oh well, too late to change now.
See ya'll later. I think I'm done now! |