I know it's officially April fools day. I got this e-mail from a friend/relative. It had this link. You will have to decide to trust me or not. You will love it. I promise it's not porn. {snicker} |

I'm gonna give you teeny tiny book reports.

• 'The Wedding' by Julie Garwood
• The only reason I picked this one is because I had 8 books. I am so, so glad I got it. It is absolutely hilarious. I've read it atleast 10 times. I'm still laughing each time. It could be classified as historical. Has Scottish warriors. Very picturesque. Great sex scenes. After all, isn't that why I read my trashy romances?
• 'The Heir' by Johanna Lindsey
• This one I actually read before and didn't realize it. That's never happened before. It's still good. It's historical, well written.
• 'The Pursuit' by Johanna Lindsey
• I wanted this one because it's a sequel to 'Love Me Forever' which was awesome. It's a good story, but not as good as the first. Still, I wasn't disappointed.
• 'Say You Love Me' by Johanna Lindsey
• This is one of the Mallory family series. It's very good. Very funny parts in it.
• 'You Belong To Me' by Johanna Lindsey
• I read this one before too. I had a feeling when I picked it up and got it anyway. Worth the re-read. This is also one I re-read in between the others.
• 'Born in Fire', 'Born in Ice', 'Born in Shame' by Nora Roberts
• This is a trilogy, three in one book. I'm actually starting the reread on it now. It's an Irish book. More present time than any other. 3 sisters find love. Very good series.
• 'Key of Light', 'Key of Knowledge', 'Key of Valor' by Nora Roberts
• Very good series. Has a bit of magic in it. I love to have magic in my books.
• 'Engaging The Enemy' by Nora Roberts
• This is a 2 book one. Apparently she wrote for Harlequin a while back. They were good stories, but I'm not compelled to read more than once.

So there you have it. Trashy romance is what I'm into right now. I would be into my sci-fi/fantasy but they don't have the sets. Piers Anthony is a very good author for that. When I go to the library, I look for my sci-fi first. I see some people are reading real crime books. I do like those once in a while. The mind of a killer does fascinate me. I used to read Robin Cook until all the books started being the same. The only difference in them was the method of killing. If you are gonna read any of these I listed, choose 'The Wedding'. I don't care if you don't like that kind of book, you'll like it anyway. Have fun! |

Finished all my books. Would have been done sooner, but 2 of them grabbed my attention so much so, that I reread them in between the new ones. So, I finish one, then re-read those 2. They are oh so much fun. I was laughing my ass off. Hubby kept giving me funny looks. Pphhtt! Made me laugh so hard my eyes watered and I couldn't see to read. I'll tell ya'll the titles at another time. Must reread! LMAO!
Thanks to se7en I have flourescent blue linky things, but for some reason the 'visited' linkies came up god awful purple. I sure like that flourescent though.
I had to talk hubby into spending $50 for the new gran turismo game. I knew he 'needed' it. Can you imagine? Had to talk him into getting a game for himself. He is having a lot of fun, still trying to pass license test. I tell you they are a bitch. I don't play the game, but I sit there and make sound effects. From sitting with him playing each gran turismo I know when it's appropriate to brake, and tap the appropriate buttons. So if he needs to brake, I'm going 'rrrrrrrrrrrr'. And at a corner, where you're supposed to tap to stick the tires, I'm clicking 't t t t'. I get dirty looks. I dont' know why he doesn't just give in. There have been many times I help with certain license tests and new tracks for him to win. Ooh, just made it all about me. I make sound effects for everything I or he plays. It's a good thing I don't have diablo on now. Even my kids thought I was crazy. I don't need sound effects, I make my own.
I'm sorry to say, I got so involved in my books I haven't been reading ya'll. That and hubby is taking 'vacation' before he goes and looks for another job. This game will do him a lot of good. Take his mind off the pressures of trying to figure out what to do. Anyway, I'll visit soon. See ya! |

{insert happy dance here!}
Went to the library....Got 10 books....Gonna read em all....Atleast 5 times
ok, imagine the musical notes there. You know what this means, yes? I'll come by ya'lls places around once a day but no more. Gots me lots to read. WooHoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I swear, this is just as good as an orgasm. Atleast for me. Ah, the pleasure! |

Ok, ok I'll tell ya how I did it.
The text that pops up when you 'hover' over the link:
in the anchor tag <> you have a href="url" title="this is the popup text"
in anchor tag with image you have a href="url"<> then <> img src="url" alt="text for if pic doesn't show" title="this is the popup text"
The title can be in the anchor or the image tags.
View the source code: you'll see it. Just scroll to the bottom where all the links are.
The picture in the haloscan comments:
Go to haloscan.com, I just cheat and click the haloscan button. Clicky edit template. There will be 3 tab thingies. On one of those three there is a space for image on your template. You have to put in the full url starting with the http:// if you don't do the http it may not show the pic. You have to have the pic on your own site. I have my pics in geocities. I have a free website there. I upload images to that and use it to link to pics here. The url for mickey is something like http://www.geocities.com/my username/pic.gif(or jpg) I don't have ftp or free site with my ISP provider. That's how I bypass it. |

Ok, the other day hubby comes home early. Why?, he quit. Was not happy not enough money. No job, but we'll be ok for a bit and everyone is hiring soon. Pondering thoughts today. Open his own restaraunt. It's feasible if we have someone to 'give' us money for it. There is a candidate for that. With word today, I made a few lists. Equipment, a mock menu, grocery, employee no-nos. It would be Mexican, as that is what we know. I'm gonna teach him to make proper ench sauce. I will teach him how to make green chile. Most of the ones here just use ench sauce on burritos. Gross! Trying for the list of bar stuff.
Thoughts? What would you expect to have on the menu at a mexican place? What do you expect from the bar?
Maybes, possibilites. Aren't they just so fun? |

Click on the title and go see it yourself. Just under the headline, since I read small print very well, it says: monologues celebrate women putting an end to world violence. I don't know which is funnier, the headline itself or the sub title to it. |

(on my father's side.) I think I'm ready to write about her.
...Showed me what a mother's love is supposed to be
...Taught me what unconditional love is
...Unintentionally pointed out to me how bad of a mother mine was and my stepmother too
...Noticed what was going on with us as kids
...Has always been there for me, like my mother and father should have been
...Loves me, as my parents are supposed to
...Does not judge me
...Is very naive about the oddest things
...Is devoted to my Grandpa
...Showed me how a marriage is supposed to be
...Doesn't care how stupid my words sometimes sound and still listens
...Does not give advice unless asked for it
...Is the M&M grandma to her greatgrandkids
...Lives too far away
...Is proud of me, like my parents have never been
...Loves me unconditionally, as my parents never have
...Is the gentlest person I've ever known
...Is honest
...Does not lie
...Is proud of and supports all of my sisters, as my parents never have
...Makes me sometimes wish I never knew her, because she showed me what my mother was supposed to be like
...Showed me how to be not so neurotic about my kids getting sick
...Has never forgotten my birthday
...Has never made me feel unwanted
My grandmother is many things to me. I miss her. I don't call her. I should, it's just so tempting to tell her about my father's (her son) shit. I can and have told her anything. She has never judged any of her grandkids for having sex and getting pregnant before a wedding. She knew just what to say when I had my miscarriage at 17 years old. She didn't try to tell me it was God's will. She didn't even try to say it'll be ok. It wasn't. It never has been. It's amazing how people will try to brush things under the rug. With some things you just can't do that. I have nightmares about her dying. She doesn't take good care of herself, she mostly just concerns herself about grandpa. He has many health problems, she seems to forget to take care of herself too. She is the only person in my life that ever felt near a mother to me. I only ever saw her about once a year, but it was enough. For that short time every year I could pretend my father cared. He never really did. He shows it well enough now. When he was around her, he acted like a father.
I just want to know why? Why have kids if you don't want them. There's adoption, other options. Birth control. I don't think I'm ever going to get past this. Ah, well. Maybe burying my head in another book will stop the tears. Can't cry over my mother anymore, but apparently he can make me cry still. Why? |

...but I won't do that. Meatloaf. Lyrics from Lyrics 007 What is it that you won't do?

Meatloaf - I'D DO ANYTHING FOR LOVE (BUT I WONT DO THAT)
And I would do anything for love,
I'd run right into hell and back,
I would do anything for love,
I'll never lie to you and thats a fact.
But I'll never forget the way you feel right now
- Oh no - no way - I would do anything for love,
But I wont do that, I wont do that, anything for love,
I would do anything for love, I would do anything for love,
But I wont do that, I wont do that.
Some days it dont come easy,
Some days it dont come hard
Some days it dont come at all,
And these are the days that never end.
Some nights you breath fire,
Some nights your carved in ice,
Some nights your like nothing I've ever seen before, Or will again.
Maybe Im crazy, But it's crazy and it's true,
I know you can save me, No one else can save me now but you.
As long as the planets are turning,
As long as the stars are burning,
As long as your dreams are coming true - You better believe it! -
That I would do anything for love,
And I'll be there until the final act -
I would do anything for love!
And I'll take a Vow and Seal a pact -
But I'll never forgive myself if we dont go all the way - Tonight -
I would do anything for love!
I would do anything for love,
I would do anything for love,
But I wont do that, I wont do that...
I would do anything for love,
Anything you've been dreaming of,
But I just wont do that...
Some days I pray for Silence,
Some days I pray for Soul,
Some days I just pray to the God of Sex and Drums and Rock 'N' Roll.
Some nights I lose the feeling,
Some nights I lose control,
Some nights I just lose it all when I watch you dance and the thunder rolls.
Maybe I'm lonely, And thats all I'm qualified to be,
There's just one and only, The one and only promise I can keep.
As long as the wheels are turning,
As long as the fires are burning,
As long as your prayers are coming true - You better believe it - !
That I would do anything for love!
And you know it's true and thats a fact,
I would do anything for love!
And there'll never be no turning back -
But I'll never do it better than I do it with you,
So long - So long - I would do anything for love,
I would do anything for love,
I would do anything for love,
I would do anything for love,
But I wont do that, I wont do that!
I would do anything for love,
Anything you've been dreaming of,
But I just wont do that...
But I'll never stop dreaming of you
Everynight of my life - No Way -
I would do anything for love,
I would do anything for love,
I would do anything for love,
But I wont do that, I wont do that!
Girl : Will you raise me up?
Will you help me down?
Will you help get me right out of this Godforsaken town?
Will you make it a little less cold?
Boy : I can do that!
I can do that!
Girl : Will you hold me sacred?
will
you hold me tight?
Can you colorize my life I'm so sick of black and white?
Can you make it a little less old?
Boy : I can do that!
I can do that!
Girl : Will you make me some magic, with your own two hands?
Can you build an Emerald city with thes
e grains of sand?
Can you give me something that I can take home?
Boy : I can do that!
I can do that!
Girl : Will you cater to every fantasy that I've got?
Will ya hose me down with holy water - if I get too hot - ?
Will you take me to places that
I've never known?
Boy : I can do that!
I can do that!
Girl : Afert a while you'll forget everything,
It was a brief interlude, And a midsummer night's fling,
And you'll see that it's time to move on.
Boy : I wont do that!
I wont do that!
Girl : I know the territory - I've been around,
It'll all turn to dust and we'll all fall down,
And sooner or later you'll be screwing around.
Boy : I wont do that!
I wont do that!
Anything for love, I would do anything for love,
I would do anything for love,
But I wont do that, I wont do that.

I'm not sure what my 'I won't do that' would be. |

...Sometimes. This one is playing and just touched me. Found the lyrics. Link at Lyrics007. Going to paste them for you here.
Artist: R.E.M. Lyrics Song: Everybody Hurts Lyrics (Berry/Buck/Mills/Stipe)

When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on
Don't let yourself go, 'cause everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes
Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go, (hold on)
When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on
'Cause everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone
If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on
Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
Everybody hurts. You are not alone

So...So...True. |

Jammin with my YIM Launchcast. I forgot about this song! Brings me back to my high school days: The 90's. Yeah, I'm laughing at all ya'll old people. I graduated in 1995! Bonus: Goes along with the other post. Poison is pretty awesome. Every Rose Has It's Thorn is by far my favorite, but this'll do. |

How does that go? Something like Bwahahaha! Suckered ya right in, huh? It's Monday night, and Jay Leno did headlines tonight. I was reading and not paying attention. I looked up and what do I see? Well, that...the title of the post.
Apparently the editor of whatever paper didn't pay attention to the headline. It seems it's Spring Break and the Vagina Monologues are coming to their town. That would work if anyone on vacation actually reads the paper. That can't be anything but amusing. I'll find the link later. It's not up yet. I did come across this one though: The House of Ho. Check it out! You can watch the Howie stuff too. I may do that later.
Happy Thoughts! |

As I can't find what I'm looking for, I'm showing some of my stuff that I am passionate about, but everyone who knows me knows about it. In a few minutes or so, we'll have all the pics in one post.

This one is my 'extensive' collection of stuffed animals. As you can see, I'm rather particular. Sorceror(sp?)Mickey is my favorite. I will have a tattoo of him sooner or later. Yes, I do already have one, it's on my ankle, I'll do a pic someday. I still have a passion for carebears and I love unicorns. I do like magic after all!

This is my Anne Rice collection on top, and my dragons on the bottom. I really love these books and read them all about once every 2 to 3 weeks. As you can imagine, I've probably read most of them a hundred time. I've had some of them for years!

This is my other book shelf I conned my husband into hanging. It's my trashy romance on the bottom, and my other sci-fi/fantasy on the top. As you can see, I really do like magic, sorcery and elves. For some reason elves are my favorite. I read these as often as I do the ones on the other shelf.
These are not the only books I have. I still have some that belong on the shelf, but I still have them out to read. My voyage of the jerle shannara are not yet up there yet. If you look close you can see the scions of shannara on the 3rd shelf, it won't stand up properly so it's laid down.
I cannot find the stuff I was going to show you. It makes me very upset. I think I know where it is. 'Stupid bitch' is not going to want to give it back. I will try to have hubby get it for me. They are having easter dinner. He's taking the kids, I will not go. We all know why, don't we? Still....so.....damn....ANGRY!
I do have one pic that hints at it, but I want the stuff from my folder to show you. We'll see if I can't get it next Sunday. They may feel they can be stupid and rude to me, but my father will never be rude to my hubby. |

I got my trashy romance novel today! Oh yeah! Gonna give me weeks of entertainment. Haven't opened it yet, was playing Digimon World. Yes people, I watch cartoons, play kiddie video games and am an adult. Call it making up for lost time with my nearly non-existent childhood. Which reminds me, damnit! kids are getting up too early. I am starting to be too tired to watch my Inuyasha. I love that one. Up note though: my kids have me awake early enough on Saturday to catch Beyblade G-Force, and Digimon season 4, I think. It's the one with Guilmon, Renamon etc. Yeah, you can tell I watch them religiously.
Lets see, I'll summarize my oddities as revealed in the last few months.
I love to read playboy, with the advisor as my favorite.
I have Anne Rice's first Beauty book, and yes it fascinates me. (SH!)
I am addicted to all Disney Movies; yes, I did get to see Mulan2. I loved it, the kids didn't even pay attention to it.
I love Mickey Mouse, but no other disney character. And you damn well better not assume I like Minnie Mouse, I don't. Who wears skirts anyway? Not me!
I don't wear makeup, am allergic to perfume, allergic to gold. All in all that makes me a cheap date and wife.
I read like there's no tomorrow. When I'm jonesing for a new book, is when I show up on ya'lls blogs like 10 times a day, depending. Yes, I do have withdrawal symptoms. I get a little nutty and irritable. I re-read my new book, the one that comes in the mail each month, atleast 2-3 times a day. Yes, I read fast and I still catch my kids getting into stuff.
I cannot get enough Bon Jovi music. EVER!
I listen to Heavy Metal, Old soft rock, and Old country. That in and of itself is odd. I do not listen to elevator music. I don't care who's song it is, if there is no words, it goes off. Pink Floyd sucks!!!!!!! 10min music, 2 min words, 10 min music end of song. I'll break those cd's in half one of these days, if he doesn't quit driving me nuts with them.
I don't do housework, I can't bring myself to do it. My house is clean enough not to be a health hazard. My kids trash it the minute it gets clean. I will not ever clean the bathroom and have not done so since I was 17 and moved out. Before then I did since I was 9 or 10 pretty much on a daily basis.
My brain works differently than everyone I know. I can have 3 conversations with myself, in my head, at any given time. The more complicated you make something explaining it to me, the more I understand it. If it's simple, most likely I won't.
Questions: Why do they call it drag racing, they don't drag anything?, Why can't an engines firing order be 1, 2, 3, 4 etc? I know it can't fire in a row, why not just call them that, instead of 2, 5, 3, 1, 4 or whatever? These actually confuse me. I don't get it.
I have never forgotten any book I've ever read. The moment I pick it up and look at the title I know EXACTLY what it says, I read it anyway. My brain never shuts off until I am completely exhausted.
I can spell almost any word sight unseen. The trick: our language is made up of simple sounding, but very complicated spelled words. As simple as that. Almost no word is spelled like it sounds.
Coffee does not work for me, I still drink it in hopes it will one day.
Night time sinus meds make me zippy, day time make me sleepy. I am immune to almost every single ***damn sinus medication on the shelf at the store. My immune system is that good. If I ever have an allergic reaction, I am screwed. Benadryl does not work for me.
I am an obsessive perfectionist when it comes to learning how to do something for the first time. I make little changes on my template all the time. Hell, I did 5 today. I reread my posts several times and edit any misspelled words, yet I suck at grammar. I really like commas, you can tell. (I just went through a second time and corrected some spelling and added more words.)
I am a walking contradiction. Trust me, it confuses me a hell of a lot more than it will you. Have a nice weekend. As you know, my book is here. That means I will be reading until Monday or so. I'll stop by probably once a day, so see ya when I post the answer to the previous post. Titled: I have a secret passion. |

...for something. I'll tell you all about it, but you have to guess. As it's Thursday, and the weekend hubby will most likely have the computer, I'll tell you next week. I'll even provide pictures. Make as many guesses as you like. No hints will be given. If you are right, I'll post about it sooner. Good Luck! |

The new playboy is here! I haven't perused it yet. Hubby gets first dibs. He had it last night. I'll be telling you what's in it when I get time to properly enjoy my 'reading'. LMAO! The bunny was very easy to find, don't recognize the covergirl. Diamonds galore and she's wrapped in a bow. She's a redhead too. Ya'll should like that. ;) I'd post a pic of the cover, but I'm sure it's all copyrighted. I'd hate to get into trouble over it.
*Update!: I've gotta tell ya. I love my Playboy. Even more than Readers Digest, and yes I get Woman's Day. Just don't tell anyone, it's got good recipes but crappy sex life advice. The advisor in playboy is better. Husband looks at the pics and jokes only. Me, I read it. Yes it fascinates me. Advisor: my favorite part. When it comes to sex, unlike Tina, I'm quite a bit repressed and a bit of a prude. There are some things I just refuse to consider. So it is a bit odd that I read playboy religiously. There is a pictorial as a tribute to some brazilian magazine. The women are pretty and have a line. That is weird. Why would you shave and itch the next day. Upkeep on that is like twice a day. There isn't enough time in a day to do that. It's worse than trying to keep your goatee neat, trust me. There is, Celebrity Sex Quotes. As they are quotes, I'm sure they can't be copyrighted. :) As usual the cartoons are great, jokes are funny. And there is really weird crap recommended for very rich men. Nice to see not near as many blondes as is usual. Maybe blondes really do have more fun, it seems that's how it must be. As the majority of the models tend to be blonde, maybe they like to pose more than other hair colors. Hell, what do I know about it? All I know is I don't even wanna see me naked, let alone anyone else. For those that have to wait for April's issue to hit the stands: Too bad, you shoulda got a subscription! |

Again, I am trying to make my blog Valid CSS and XHTML. It is very far from being that way. Considering the CSS Tutorial at w3schools totally confused me this is going to be difficult. With firefox, I can validate any page I'm at. I can also view source and ask it to clean up the html, css. I saved the template and tried doing it offline. It's not doing what I want. Almost every tag specific to blogger is not recognized in either XHTML or CSS!
$BlogMetaData$ <--These ones are not recognized in either strict or transitional. Why then can I view in firefox? I want to have my page valid. It's good practice for when I decide to start another homepage for my family. Which I will do soon. I'm thinking about A page with stuff, then a link to a next page to have conversations, like blogs do. In order to do this, I really need to understand CSS. AH!
Oh! se7en, I will take you up on designing this page as soon as you can attain the right/permission to use mickey mouse related pics. LMAO! Nah, I do wonder though, if you could use some free ones. I have found quite a few free images for use on websites. Of course I want to learn to do it myself. For my family site, when I get around to it, I will probably ask for a design for it. A front page, pic page, announcement page and a conversationish page. Hmmm. Might have to pay for that. I'm open to ideas for a family page. Not to awful creative here, so need help with that. Basically, what would you want to have on your family's page? Guess I'll need to learn about bandwidth and such. Hmm. Don't worry, when I'm ready, I'll be more than willing to pay for an awesome design and cool flash header thingy.
Moral to the story: I'm going to be viewing page sources in blogger today. Starting with se7en's as it seems he knows quite a bit about blogger templates anyway. Anyone who has links to tutorials that'd be great. I already have a binder full of what I printed on HTML, XHTML and CSS. I think I have paper on Java script too. That one is confusing also. I'd like to do some mouseover on my links with the alt text popping up when you are over a link. Not a whole button, just the words in a small line, like when you mouseover something in your MyComputer area. Ideas for where to find the how of it? I tried the w3 and all I got from it was how to change text color in a header. I know you can do it, just can't remember or figure it out.
Back to learning...see ya'll later.
*UpdateWow, validating the html on se7en's page Wow! A lot of unclosed tags. Oh and you have some li tags without any ul or ol ones. Here's the link to the validation page if you want to see. Mostly it's not ending the img, p, and br tags. Oh! damnit! For some reason, you don't show the haloscan javascript errors that I do. I wonder why that is. After all, don't we all have almost identical code for it? There's this too:Entity references start with an ampersand (&) and end with a semicolon (;). If you want to use a literal ampersand in your document you must encode it as "&" (even inside URLs!). So not fair! Forgetting to end tags is no big deal and easy to fix. I wonder why the java stuff that I copy/pasted shows errors and yours doesn't. Curious. (Oh, only telling you bout the little errors in case you wanted to know. I am not criticizing at all. I love your page.)*
More updates later as I continue on to other places.
Yep, in other pages the validator complains about the javascript from haloscan. Odd. Now I'm really confus-ed. I did find technorati now. That looks like fun. Waiting for the e-mail thing for the code for my template. |

Check out Steven's forehead. He woke up with that this morning! I didn't notice it yesterday. Husband said it was a little red there after nap yesterday. No idea how that happened. The kids tore apart their pillows, so we replaced them with the couch pillows. Tonight, before bed, I felt one and it is slightly rough. My guess is that Steven rolls a lot in his sleep. As he usually sleeps pretty much on his face, he must have rubbed his head back and forth to irritate it enough. Thoughts?
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My curiosity knows no bounds. I installed a visitor tracker because I am curious about anyone who would visit my site. Not because I want to know how many have viewed it.
*Note: This is my second post of the day, if you want to read the other just scroll down.*
My first Curiosity Killed the Cat post was because my tracker was logging a lot of visits. Most didn't stay for more than 0 seconds. I wanted to know how people were finding my site. Of course, I hadn't then realized that the next blog button sent you to a random blog. I never pushed the button to see where it led to. I found most of the blogs I go to now from a single post on gigglechick. I found her from my yahoo start page. It was something about the blog awards. Jay was giving her a run for her money on the biggest blog whore award. That very first blog, Jay's Party got me hooked. I can't get to sleep most nights, so I had delved through all the archives. I liked it very much and still visit daily. From there I found Jack's blog. And from various comments and Jack's sidebar, I found many of the blogs you see on mine. Curiosity is how I found most of those. So basically, until recently I never hit the next blog button. The only site I found worthy of my bookmarks doing that was Blogs for Firefox.
So, moral of the story, I pay attention to my counter. I investigate every visitor. Basic terms, I click on the drill down and see how long they stayed for and what they came from. I don't use the ip or other info for anything really. Just satisfying my curiousity. So, I have some interesting ones.
lj1101.inktomisearch.com (Inktomi Corporation)--California, Foster City, United States, 0 returning visits--Date Time WebPage--March 12th 2005 03:15:26 PM--No referring link<--- This one visits every 2 days, without fail. No referring link, and doesn't stay longer than 0 seconds. By far, my most curious visitor. I wonder why they come back, if they aren't even reading it?
Worldcall Dotcom)--Sindh, Karachi, Pakistan, 0 returning visits--Date Time WebPage--March 12th 2005 02:43:07 PM--mickicas.blogspot.com/2005_01_01_mickicas_archive.html--search.yahoo.com/ search?p=cartoon network%3A winx club porn pics&sm=Yahoo%21 Search&fr=FP-tab-web-t&toggle=1<--This is my newest search entry. By far, my funniest. I guess the turnup is from when I did my I'm Addicted post. I was listing the cartoons I watch every saturday. I'm addicted to cartoons. I think I always will be. The most curious thing about that search, to me, is that they read as being from Pakistan.
So this is our, you can laugh at me today, post. I know how all of my commenters got here. Only tina came from a comment from a site that wasn't hers. Everyone else, pretty much came from a comment I gave on their site. I enjoy reading other's blogs. I like hearing about other's problems. For purely selfish reasons. It takes my mind off my own. I don't have that many of them, aside from bad, hateful parents, my life is great. My main problem is being at home all the time. I choose to read other's pages and it shows me my life isn't that bad. I know, it's selfish, but I'm not going to lie to you. There's no point. My favorite site by far is Jay's. His wit is hilarious. He is so sweet and loving to his wife. You can see it in the words and comments. He's also a bit of a little boy too. That's refreshing and amusing.
Sometimes I will post about something my boys did. Usually, it's going to be something amusing to you, but pisses me off. Sometimes I see something in the 'news' that pisses me off. I have no other adult outlet, as my husband doesn't care to hear about it, so I write that here too. I complain about my parents. This is my main source of sadness about my life. Every time, on one of 'my' blogs, that I read about someone's parents, it's gushy. Apparently most don't know what it's like to have parents who ignore them or demean them at every oppurtunity. That's great. Sometimes I live vicariously through that. Sometimes I'm jealous. Sometimes I want to comment something like, "You better hold on to that, not all parents love their kids." Mostly I refrain. When Restless asked people to visit Home Fires, because her dad died, I did. But I didn't comment. I couldn't. All I wanted to do was say how lucky she was to have a father that loved her, no matter what she did. No matter who she was. Thank your lucky stars you had that, I didn't. That's not something someone should hear after the loss of a loved one. Considering that's my only real problem in life I should feel lucky. I guess. I don't know.
If you want to know what I'm talking about regarding my parents, the entries are in order, first one I wrote, etc: About me and what made me who I am today, Assholes, and I think it's time to tell you about my mother.
My thoughts are always random. That's why my posts are all over the board. My brain works faster than my mouth does. Even my typing. Sometimes it's very hard to follow the thread of an entry because my typing skipped it and my brain thought it was already there. As you can see by the way this post ended up. It's all about me, but hey, it's my blog and I can cry if I want to. ;) |

Well, we've been taking it easy with Steven. Taking him potty if he wants to, and letting him pee in his pullup if he wants. You see, the trick ,especially with boys, is for them to want to. It has to be fun, exciting, a really big deal. I don't know how many stories I've heard, my kid potty trained in just a week. Wow, really? You're kid is a girl, isn't it. Why yes, how did you know? Maybe this makes up for later when their bodies bleed once a month, who knows. I don't know anyone who potty trained a boy in less than 6 months. Fully potty train(not just pee in the potty). My nephew was very easy for my sister to train. With my first son, I got this brilliant, kind of, idea how to get my son to potty train. Her son is very eager to please so he potty trained in around 6 months. Mikel did not care about the potty, he had better things to do. Like play cars. It's funny, just one day they up and start saying I have to potty!
We didn't start Mikel's training till around 2 ½ years old. We waited till his little brother was around 6months so he wouldn't get confused with the upheaval of a new baby. Friday night, I forgot to pull out something from the deep freeze. So, I cheated and was cooking spaghetti with no meat. Once, after I stirred the noodles, I turned away from the stove. Is there a point, you ask? This has nothing to do with pottying. Oh!, but it does. What did I see, but my 2yr had pulled his pullup just far enough down to have his 'thing' out to pee on his bedroom floor. His mistake. He let me know that he does know when he has to pee. Oops! Trying to put underwear on him is like pulling teeth. Nooooooo! He pulls his legs out, he screams. He takes them off and gets a pullup. Yesterday he was all for standing or sitting to pee. Daddy was home, that's why. This morning he's already peed all over his underwear and won't go near the potty. My kids inherited my stubborness. They will scream for hours if they want to. When they were smaller, before words, if they couldn't sleep, they'd scream. Mikel holds the record at around 6 hours, and no he didn't go to sleep, he was 4 months old. Actually, Mikel screamed for 6 months, quiet only when eating for the most part. Trust me when I tell you, gas drops for the bottle! Always. My sister in law figured it out. You know, no one tells you what to expect when you have a new baby. It's like they all forgot when their kids were very little. They only tell you about tylenol, how to take a temperature, that's pretty much it. Those books for new parents are useless. Every kid is different so not one really works. Unless you are reading one to find out what kind of food your kid is supposed to eat.
Ah well, the plants are great. All four are up now. I'm going to have to thin them soon. Will be transplanting most likely next week. Cilanto and garlic chives! They won't be ready for use for a few months yet, but they are perennials. They come back every year. I'm going to have them in the house, so they may not 'die' at all. Have fun!, it's Monday. |

Se7en's granny driver story inspired me. Today I'm going to tell you about FT's. Aka fucking tourists. I live in the Lake of the Ozarks in MO. That's a good descriptor, everyone knows what general area that is, but it still doesn't pinpoint me. We are a tourist area. We have 2 different kinds of FT's. One kind is the ones who come down in the summer for us locals to wait on hand and foot. The other kind are the ones who used to be the other kind, but loved it so much they moved here from, mostly, CA either retired or to open a business.
So around April, they start coming down here in droves. Mostly these ones are for Kansas City or St. Louis. Then comes Memorial Day. At that point, no local would be caught dead anywhere near a store between Thursday night and Monday afternoon. In order to not wait in line at a store for an hour or so, you can only shop on Tuesday or Wednesday. Even if it's very sunny and hot. Not all the FT's play on the lake. If it's raining? we don't leave our houses unless it's for work. If it's raining, you leave your house for work an hour earlier than you normally do and hope you aren't late. Between memorial day and labor day, when trying to get to work, you have to leave an hour early than normal (winter normal). Basically a 20 minute drive will translate to an hour or so. Rain, a 20 minute drive translates to, if you work in a restaraunt, you have to be at work an hour earlier than normal and you leave 2 hours earlier than normal.
Let's describe the roads here. Curves. Hills. Short, maybe 50 feet, straight stretches for us to try to pass the idiots. There is a lake road about every 20 feet here every where you go. There are no shoulders on the road, if you go off it, you roll down a hill. There are 2 bridges on my side. One is 2 lane, the other is 4 lane. By 2 lane, I mean that one lane is cars going north, the other is cars going south; opposite directions. Our roads are 2 lane until Osage Beach. Everyone that knows Lake of the Ozarks, knows Osage Beach, and no, I don't live that close to it. Then they are 4 lane. Our bridges have very wide shoulders with short barriers on the sides. Apparently this is scary. You could fit a whole car on the shoulder on the bridges, without any other vehicles able to hit it and it's scary! Idiots!
So, this is how the FT's drive. When they see a curve they hit the brakes. When they are going around a curve, they ride the brakes. When they see a hill, they hit the brakes. When they drive up a hill they ride the brakes. When they drive down the hill they are pretty much putting the brakes to the floor. When they see a lake road they hit the brakes. They ride the brakes up until they actually pass the lake road sign. You can tell who is looking for a certain road. Their blinkers and brakes go on every time the so much as see a lake road. The roads here, until town are 55mph. They drive 20 to 35mph. You know, that would be ok, but those idiots when you try to pass them speed up so you can't. Yes! Especially the drunk college kids. As busy as the roads are, it's rare to get to pass these people. Also, they fluctuate how fast they go. So you drive along the road and have to hit your brakes, a lot. You gauge how fast they are going and leave a little distance between then all of a sudden they slam the brakes and you have to too. Yeah, been a few fender benders.
FT's include: Old people, Middle age people, College kids. They also include people who have moved here, been here for years and are still braking for everything. They also expect us to wait on them hand and foot, and now! Right fucking now! No matter how many people are in front of them in line, or at tables, it's right now. You can be sat 4 tables of 4 people apiece, all at the same time, and invariably one of them will bitch that you didn't get there soon enough. They will wait for hours, I said hours!, to get a table at a restaraunt. Then their food can't come fast enough. I've been waiting 5 minutes, my food should be here now. They will wait for hours and then whine that they had to wait that long. Wait a minute! You should have gone to the damn grocery store and got dinner and fixed it your own damn self if you didn't want to wait. Down here, even the crappiest waitress can make $400 in a night. That's about 4 or 5 hours. The good ones, my sister in law is one, can make a grand, yes, that's $1000. During the summer is good money. Winter comes and over half of our population is laid off. No FT's to waste their money. End of summer, many businesses have FT parties. They advertise it, the tourists think great! They aren't invited, they've all gone home. We throw parties because our headache, for a while, is over.
Because we are a tourist area, there aren't many high paying jobs to be found. And if there are, they want a resume and that piece of paper that said you had extra schooling. Doesn't matter how fast you learn. Doesn't matter that they still have to train the people with the paper. Leave and go somewhere else you say? Well, give me the money to move and I will. Yeah, we make good money in summer, but we have to save it to get by in winter.
Yeah, we do have 'little old lady' drivers. But to us it's no different than the FT's. We have drunk drivers, no different than the FT's. In summer time, we don't go anywhere after midnight, unless it's home from work. If we go to a party, we stay not go home. It's too dangerous to drive late at night. The FT's are drunk and drive that way. They do it on the lake at night too. There are drownings every year. Because they were drunk on the lake. I don't feel bad for them. They did something really stupid and paid dearly for it. Many locals get a designated driver, even for their boats. My reaction is, some idiot got themselves killed again. I feel bad for their families. Water patrol can't keep up with them all. Some people actuall swim in our lake. Let me tell you, that's just nasty. If you go swimming here, you have to take a shower afterwards. You come out and are covered in dirt. You can see it caught in the little hairs that even women have. Normally you can't see the hairs that women have all over their bodies. When they swim in the lake, you get to see it. You can get a yeast infection from swimming in our lake. Because the FT's seem to think it's ok to dump their trash, tires, sewage from their rented house boats into our lake. If you choose to swim in our lake, you are just asking for trouble. It's amazing, the FT's know it and just don't care.
Well, that's all for know. Have a fun Friday! |

Woo Hoo! I'm going to have my very own herb garden!

My seeds sprouted earlier than expected. Good thing I took that Horticulture class. Out of the 4, only one hasn't sprouted any yet. I have garlic flavored chives, marjoram, and some pretty blue creeping flowers. The cilantro has not sprouted. I don't know if it will, but it's not expected to until atleast 15 days. My hanging basket strawberries haven't sprouted either. Not sure why, but only had a few tiny seeds, so I may have to buy some more. I don't even know why I got the marjoram, I haven't ever cooked with it. Oh well, maybe I will. Thinning won't happen for a while yet. I have many sprouts but don't need more than a few. I'll transer to an 8" pot for the herbs. The flowers are going to require another hanging basket. I've never used fresh herbs before. If these chives are good, I'll probably use them a lot. I want some scallions, aka green onions. Didn't find seeds for them at walmart though. All my plants are perennials. They will grow back each year. You prune them back after they flower to enable the process to do what it needs to to get good plants each year. If you don't, they aren't as good when they come back. I've never grown herbs, let alone indoors. I don't know if they'll go through their die in the winter thing. It would be cool if they didn't. That's ok though, I can freeze the leaves.
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Here I am, once again, unable to sleep. I'm tired but not sleepy. Does that even make sense. When I can't sleep, I try to distract myself. Tonights 'distraction' courtesy of Little Green Footballs (LGF), link on the side bar. The posts are, admittedly, right leaning. I don't define right and left very well. Each side has it's nuts. I consider myself in the middle. Just because it's on my TV doesn't mean it's true. I mean, come on, if I were to believe that, I'd believe Santa exists. I don't want to be 'political', I don't like to be 'political'. I've got to tell ya though, The far right conservatives are making more sense than the mainstream left. A few things on both sides irritate me.
1. We do not really elect our president. The electoral college does. This is 7th grade Civics class. What is the electoral college? Presumably, from what I remember in my Civics class, Our Representatives and/or Senators. Since then I have learned, each state differs on who does get to cast our votes. Basically each state gets as many votes as it has representatives and senators. This is where the get the pretty numbers on the election maps. Way back when we first started voting, each state's legislature appointed people to go to Washington to cast their vote for president. The state legislature was supposed to pick the people who would vote the way the legislature chose. It didn't always happen that way, it did a lot though. This is how it can appear that a president isn't elected but appointed by the majority color of the state. We didn't even have a 'popular' vote until later, I saw the classroom thing they did on C-Span. They did cite sources: the Constitution. If you don't know legal language well, it's hard to read. I know, I've tried. Too many words repeat themselves, making it difficult to translate. That's why we have the supreme court to do it for us when necessary. The purpose of our 'popular' vote is to tell whoever our representatives (in each state) to the electoral college are, how we WANT them to vote. They don't have to, we would like them to. I believe in my state, I really need to research it, that our representatives and senators cast that vote. This is why it does not really matter if some votes were uncounted. Or faked, whatever. Do we really think our elected officials will vote any way but the way they feel is right? If you do, you are just naive. Bottom line: we cannot tell them how to vote, we can only tell them how we, as a majority in each district, want them to. If you don't like the way your electoral college voted for president, you need to vote them out of office, not whine that your candidate didn't win because the election was hijacked. Get over it already!
There's a story developing, I use that term loosely, about a Communist who writes for a Communist Paper in Italy. It's unclear what she writes, does she do news or write a column? These are two different things. From all the interviews she's given, all the conflicting and changing stories, I seriously doubt she could be called a journalist. I stopped watching the news on my tv long ago because of crap like this. She got herself kidnapped. Yes she's quoted as saying they wouldn't kidnap me, I hate America. I also wonder if she really was kidnapped. Then again, I'm skeptical about many things. She's shown on kidnapper videos crying and pleading for her life. She gets out and says they wouldn't have killed her they said so. They gave me a necklace, see how nice they are. Overlooking the fact that these same people beheaded others, even her own countrymen. Overlooking the fact that these 'peaceful' people get uneducated idiots to strap on a bomb and run into the nearest populated area and kill themselves. Harming and/or killing many. Because she was that stupid, a Secret Service Agent for Italy is dead. There are conflicting stories about how much the military knew about her release. No where has it been proven that they told anyone they were going to run roadblocks to get her to the airport. Slow, fast, almost losing control of the car apparently all mean we were going really slow. First day she claims the troops were trying to assassinate her. How arrogant, she thinks we care that she's stupid and delusional. If we aren't doing that to our own people who demonstrate this kind of lack in intelligence, why would we do that to her? There was a tank, no a humvee, no just some guys with guns, apparently translates to 3 to 400 rounds of ammo. All of which just magically landed in the seat next to her, enabling her to grab handfuls. If you've ever even seen the 'making of' on a movie, you know a small gun will not do this. That bullet will embed into the metal. If it's a good bullet it will fly through the first layer and stop in the second, third, whatever layer of material, some even have the velocity to go out of the car too. It was a car, no truck, no SUV apparently has translated to I have no idea what kind of vehicle I was riding in. There's been pics. The first set were of the car she was kidnapped from. The second set had a few obvious bullet holes, but nowhere near 300. The one now claiming to be the real car has 2 obvious bullet holes. In the windshield. The pics aren't that great either. If we wanted her dead, she would be. No one would have called an ambulance to take her happy ass to the hospital. Wah! it took 20 or so minutes to get there. They were swerving potholes on a wet road in the dark with several roadblocks and she wants the ambulance to get there yesterday? If that car was riddled with bullets from a tank or an AK-47, she would be dead. From a tank, there probably would be no car. We see more damage to cars hit by bullets here in our very own US, than was in the 'official' car she was riding to the airport in. Why did they not stop? Road blocks are a common occurence on that road. I'd be prosecuting the driver of the car. Really, come on now, it's a freakin war zone. Combat. Where there are suicide car bombers, who don't slow down or stop. Did you really think that the military at any of those check points would let you just speed on down the road? If you do that at any one of our military bases here at home, you would be shot. Yes, I've been to a base. We have Ft. Leonardwood nearish here. My sister occasionally took classes there to further her MP investigator career/training. They had guns. At more than 1 spot. Yeah, we had to stop twice to get onto that base to visit. This is common. If you are that stupid, you deserve to be shot. Yes the death of the officer was tragic and an accident. No one has yet had the balls to come out and say 'An officer of the Secret Service of Italy should have known better. He should have taken the support of the escort at the Embassy. He should have made damn sure that driver would stop, or driven himself. He should have notified the US military and made damn sure that there would be no problem at any checkpoint.' Too bad he died and she got to hijack the tragedy of his death and make it a conspiracy. Our troops are certified regularly on their guns. Each one they touch. Separately. You really think a soldier that can't hit the broad side of a barn is going to recertified and allowed to hold a gun? No. They wouldn't be. There is a certain level at which you must be. You do have to come near the target. How near, I do not know. My sister qualified as a sniper on 5 or 6 different guns. She wasn't even one of those that would be on the front line. She was an MP. Her job was to investigate crimes reported. Her husband is also an MP. He's deployed in Iraq right now. I hope he hasn't heard a lot of the major news here in our country. It's demeaning. It's disgusting. Just because they chose to serve their country does not mean they don't have feelings. Each death over there is very hard for the troops. Every one of them. Depending on what branch of the military you are in, you have platoons or what have you. I'm just going to use that one. Each platoon is family. They are very close. When they are over there, away from all they hold dear, the platoon is their family. That is their support. Talk to a few veterans, you'll find that most, even now, keep in contact with each other. It is a disgrace that our media picks up stories like that writer who accused the military of trying to assassinate her. Do we not require them to investigate anymore?
No matter the reason we went there, the fact is we are there now. It is really naive to think if we meekly pull out and go back to our 'hidey holes' that they will leave us alone. Like many web sites have stated, we (the majority of the population) didn't even know they existed until they came here and attacked us. It has to stop. The terrorists must be stopped. The way the women are treated there is outrageous. If you want to wear a potato sack, so be it. You should not be forced to wear one. If you are raped, it isn't your fault. You don't deserve to be killed for it to preserve the 'honor' of your family. Adultery should equal divorce not death. In many places there is still female circumcision. For some reason it is believed that even after that is done a woman wants to have sex. The whole reason they do it is so they won't enjoy sex, it will be painful. Who wants that? Common sense people!
OK, I'll get off the soapbox now. Breathe, you're ok, you have survived. |

I am at the message boards every day. When I reply to a health question, I tell what I know either from having dealt with it with my kids, or asked my PEDIATRICIAN. I also tell them to ask their child's pediatrician. If you have small kids a pediatrician is preferable over a family practice doc. Reasoning: Peds have more schooling. To specialize you have 4yrs regular college, 4yrs med school, 2years residency, plus 2-4 years extra schooling and residency specifically dealing with children. Family practice has 4yrs regular college, 4yrs med school, 2yrs residency. I researched this because I considered becoming a doc and wanted to know how much school it entailed. A family practice takes regular license test, ped takes regular plus specialist. That's why they are allowed to call themselves ped. All those abbreviations you see, besides MD is another few years they studied to get that specific abbreviation. My pediatricians I have had expirience with attend several conferences/school type things to keep up with the advances in children's medicine. Yes, this is leading somewhere.
Yesterday there was this question:
Need a quick answer please
by Tina44727, on 3/8/2005 2:49:47 PM NEW!
DD's daycare called that she has 104 fever. How bad is that? Should i give her more tylenol (i've been giving it to her since Friday night and was working til this point) or should I take her to the doctor's right away. Thanks
My answer:
Every time your child has a fever you should give tylenol. There is tylenol itself, every 4 hours and motrin, some are 6 hours. Some docs recommed using both: ie, first use tylenol, 4hours later use motrin, etc. you get the idea. You give fever reducer regardless of whether you take to doc or not.
My peditrician has told me for 102.1(with the 1 degree added for under the arm) for longer than 2 days, I should call the doc. The temp varies on the age of your child. Also, you are supposed to give the tylenol according to weight. Use the age only if you don't know your child's weight.
For that high of a fever, I would call my doc. You need to write down what temperature your thermometer read and how you took the temperature. (if you do under the arm, don't add a degree when you tell them, just say you did it under the arm.) Give the child tylenol/motrin, write down the amount and time also. Try to remember and write down everything from the time this fever started, you said friday night. You can also do a lukewarm bath to bring the fever down. However, remember to tell the doc office you did it when you bring your kid in. This way they don't get the wrong idea about your thermometer malfunctioning.
Today there was this:
Be careful wtih Motrin and high fevers
by mishasmom0304, on 3/8/2005 7:15:38 PM NEW!
My ped recommends Tylenol first to help with a high fever as Motrin can create similar problems in children as aspirin does. This is what I have been told.
Ahhh!!! The stupidity
My answer to that:
Be careful and listen to what exactly your doc says
by mickicas, on 3/9/2005 8:39:08 AM NEW!
My pediatrician does not say that. Ask your doctor specifically how long is too long for motrin, do it for tylenol too. This will help you feel better about it. My kids don't respond well to tylenol, But motrin works great. Tylenol wears off in 2hours on my kids, you're supposed to give every 4. Motrin lasts for the 6 hours it's supposed to. So, before you assume that a parent is irresponsible and does not read THE LABEL AND DIRECTIONS, maybe you should read them. Only someone who does not bother with warnings on all medicine bottles makes such a broad generalization.
The thing with motrin is it has ibuprofen in it. If you take it over a long period of time, it can be bad for you, just like any other pain medication. I think maybe your ped meant that if your kid has a fever for a week, that giving them ibuprofen for that long could damage something. I think it's the liver, aspirin is the stomach lining.
Any medicine taken for too long can harm you, yes even tylenol. That's why a fever for more than 48hours I'm supposed to call the doc.
Now any idiot that bothers to read the label knows that any medication can hurt your child. I read the labels every time. I pay close attention to the warnings. I have researched what ibuprofen can do, but I'm unsure that it screws with your liver if taken over a long period of time, it's been a while. I know it can do something. Specifically on the bottles of infant ibuprofen it says not to give it to kids under 4 months. Motrin has only been available, at least here, for infants (0mo to 24mo), for about a year and a half. The views on the danger of it have changed. It's incredibly stupid and short sighted to scare a mother into not using something that can bring her child's fever down. It's like these idiots don't even see the CALL YOUR DOC TODAY whenever you say something. They also seem to think that whatever the moms on the board say is GOSPEL. If you take the advice of strangers on a message board instead of asking your child's doctor you deserve whatever it is you get. I do feel bad that it'll hurt the kid, but it's going to hurt them anyway with misleading the moms with just the one kid. There are disclaimers all over this site. For medical advice ask your doctor. They do have some docs that have specific boards. Even there they say do not take their advice over that of your own doc. This is because your doctor has your medical history and knows if you're allergic to something, if you don't respond to something, things like that. STUPID. This enrages me, they have no right to jeopardize the health of their own or someone else's child. If my doc told me not to give something to my kids, I ASK WHY! I don't take it as gospel, I never have. I want to know why. You see, this way, I can tell other people the reason my doc has for telling me not to or to something for my kids. GRRR!
Ok, that's it, I'll quit complaining now. Breathe, it's over and you have survived. |

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Steven's potty sticker. Playing with the editor.
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Well, sort of. My taxes are done, my e-filing accepted, all we have to do now is mail 1 piece of paper. We usually file our taxes in the first week of February. This year, that vindictive bitch: new wife, decided not to give me the 1099 whatever from working with her doing stained glass. She's my dad's wife, so not having my name, number and address is a flat out lie. Not only that, the first check I got, I wrote down on the back of the stub, my full name, SS#, address and birthdate. All the things needed to give the accountant. At the end of February, I called the IRS. Yes, she fucked with my sister, now I have no conscience. The recording said I must ask for the form before I filed a complaint. That was 2 weeks ago. I'm just not going to bother. If she does actually file with the IRS telling them she mailed mine, I'm going to sue her for any consequences of that. She has no excuse, I've lived in the same place for the last 6 years, never changed my phone number, and she can't lie and say she doesn't know how to get ahold of me. I know she's doing it to spite me. She's wrong, He's more wrong. I am not going to let them treat my sisters like that anymore. Just because you are getting laid, it does not mean you are allowed to show your children just how much you wish they were never born. I'm glad he hasn't been back. Every time I hear a harley or a truck I get scared. He might change his mind. I hope not, I don't want him near me. @#^%@!
Every year, I use my taxes to pay the house insurance, car insurance and RE PP tax. It always comes first of the year right after christmas. Never a good time of year in a place that is dead in winter, because tourists don't come here until atleast spring. I know we shouldn't depend on a tax refund. I know it's a bad idea. This is a tourist area. The only time of year you can find a job is spring through summer, yes they don't usually hire in fall they are already laying off those who didn't go back to college. There a quite a few people who don't work in the winter. The restaraunts close for the winter. People are laid off and draw unemployment. This works decently for most as long as they have a return date. Hey, they do pay into unemployment. It guarantees the places' owners their expirienced crew will return. It makes up for not being able to go anywhere but work from end of April to the end of October. Down here there are many who go around doing whatever they have to in the winter.
It took me all day yesterday to get my works suite installed. The only reason I have it is because it was cheaper than buying word separately. That makes no sense to me. I was re-doing the menu of a restaraunt and had to have it. Yeah, I can type. I can even get a sense of what colors or fonts will look nice on the paper. I cannot do descriptions, I'm glad she didn't want me to do that. I did have an advantage though. I could have done those specific descriptions. According to a cook's view anyway. You see, I worked there as: in order of what I did first to last; App Cook, dishwasher when it was needed, fry cook, I could do the line grill and topping if they wanted me to I just didn't need to most times, waitress, busser (6.00+tips), prep cook. I knew what was in everything and how to put it together. And my husband was the line cook. I used to make cheat sheets for him. Kids are always in and out during summer season aka tourist season. The first year we opened we did 400+ a weekend night, 350+ a weekday night after everyone got off the lake. We closed at 10pm. Closed is relative. There were many nights we didn't stop cooking until 12am. If they were coming in, we still served them. Waitresses didn't like that, they were stupid. This is what keeps the customers coming back, they know you will feed them no matter what time it is. There were some nights we served steam table only, some would come in after the grill and fryers were off and cooled down. If we turned them back on it would be atleast 30 mins till they got food. Back to the cheat sheets. We were always busy, so training while running the line wasn't exactly a good idea. So I made a cheat sheet for each area. 2 for the appetizer area, one was how to put them together one was how to put them on the plate and top them. The grill one said the amounts for each fajita and enchilada, etc. The 'cold line' had one too, it said what to put on the plates from the line. They all were in the order in which to put the toppings on, and specified the plate to put them on. The unintelligence of some of the kids, you would not believe. Later on I had to do one for the hot line too. My husband didn't need it but, he was training some people to do the line. He was tired of the crap the boss was giving him, he wanted to leave. Those cheat sheets are laminated and still there. A few years after the opening of the restaraunt, they begged my husband to come back. He is unique, he gets those plates out faster than the waitresses can grab them. He has a 'sense' of when to put those plates out too. If a waitress puts in 2 or more tickets at a time, depending, he'd rearrange them. He knew what each one was capable of. When he came back they were doing 600+ on a weekend, 400-500 on a weeknight. They'd sit the whole damn dining room. That's 200+ people, depending on how many are set at the 4 tops, 6 tops, you get the idea. No one waited more than 30 minutes for food once the order was in. With the exception of a steak or everyone ordered fajitas. The grill is only so big. Where ever he worked, if he needed help and I could find a babysitter, I'd go in and help. Yeah, they let me. I work for food, generally. I wanted him to have help, I didn't care about being paid. When I had a choice of him coming home after midnight because he was 'short-handed' and me helping and get home an hour after cleanup, my choice was he came home sooner. He was less stressed and didn't have to worry about trying to get some idiot to put the food out right. All I needed was a menu, and I could do it. Yes, I am that good, it's not an exaggeration. I quit working to be home with my kids, not because I couldn't find a job. Those summers were some really fun times. The first 3 years at that restaraunt, even with newbies, our kitchen was in sync. It was stressful. Appetizers are a bitch. Either you have a shitload, or you have none. One of the bosses' woman was a waitress. She was pretty stupid. She wasn't even a good waitress. She'd come back and whine that I hadn't put her apps in front of everyone else and try to complain to Ron. He's a pretty laid back guy, very good at tuning her out. He would look at me and roll his eyes. I don't take shit. When I'm that busy, taking the time out to talk to stupid waitresses put me more behind. She decided I should drop everything just to tell her it wasn't her ticket's turn yet. Whine some more. I said look if you want it that bad, get your ass back here and make it yourself. She left, after bitching at Ron some more. Poor thing, he eventually married her, I feel bad for him. Making cheese dips to go out is an art. You have to know what you're doing. It's not hard, just an art. 1 minute, stir with bowl on plate, hold plate not bowl, bowl spins, hold at angle or bowl falls off. Then you have to watch it. It has to go out immediately. If that waitress didn't get it immediately my husband would yell her name. He has a low pitched voice that carries well. They would hear it in the bar. If it was something that couldn't sit for a minute, a waitress or busser was expected to take it. Apparently this is unusual in a restaraunt. This last restaraunt my husband worked in had no bussers. The waitresses wouldn't take out each other's food. The waitresses wouldn't leave a table to get the food out. Stupid. Bet they miss him now. Like I said, people can tell if he's there cooking. They can also tell when he's not. They don't need to see into the kitchen, they can tell by their food. His boss at his new job found him that way. After eating the guy went back to the kitchen to say hi to him. It's really to bad, he loves to cook. That's what he's always wanted to do for a living. No, I don't mind. I don't care. It doesn't matter if you don't want to go to college or a trade school. You should do what makes you happy.
The second year of the restaraunt I met and married my husband in I took a swing at the grill cook. Someone grabbed my arm. Kid delighted in pissing me off. I was busy, get the fuck out of my way. I remember he was going to college in the fall. To be an engineer to design buildings. He wasn't that intelligent. That kid got a talking to, I didn't. He was told to stay out of my way. I worked, he was just a warm body until they could find someone better. He would block the small walkway on purpose. When I didn't have apps, I was 'running' for food for the line. They needed it and they needed it now. I was pretty good at paying attention and usually had the line refilled before they ran out. Everyone was trained to read the tickets. We knew the first 4 atleast would need to be fixed. Whatever our respective jobs were. That kitchen ran very smoothly. Drunken nights with margaritas too. I never knew what a hangover was until that job. Instead of using 1 ½ bottles of triple sec, they used 2. It was easier, trying to pour only half a bottle into those big jugs was a pain. I can't drink tequila straight. Ron used to go somewhere in the winter when we were closed. He always came back with a fancy higher priced tequila. Apparently they were better than the normal rotgut you get in a bar. Got my husband liking better tequila. Sauza is a cheapish, yet smooth and tasty tequila.
Ah, well I think I'm done for now. Take a deep breath, it's over now. |

This is funny. I went around to find my bookmarks again and headed to sevens site. It showed not found. WARNING! Stupid moment of the week! Heard the damn harley motor and didn't dawn on me that I forgot to tell firefox not to load pics.
Explanation: Ok, last week I tried helping tina with her computer, did everything except wipe it clean. Well, wal-mart yesterday sold me Taxcut Deluxe(It's 20 there, you might pay more if you get it direct from H&R Block). I've been having a problem off and on. I know it was after I wiped my computer the first time. That was because of a trojan or something that got installed during one of my windows updates. So I wiped it a while back, before service pack 2. I'm about to make a leap here, you'll see in a minute. I did download SP2 for XP when it came out. Somewhere between the time I wiped my hard drive and a couple days ago, my cd-rw drive won't read most discs. It won't do the auto run. I have to put the disk in and restart my computer. Then use either my computer or run to get at what's on the damn disk. This time I couldn't open the disk at all. I knew calling tech support for taxcut, they'd want me to check out my OS first. Yeah, I need my damn taxes back, I'll just wipe it again. Hell, I had a couple new trojans from updating, before I found firefox. My defrag wouldn't completely defrag anyway, now it is. So, I think when I wiped and reinstalled xp, there's a driver or program missing. I don't have the disk. The one thing I do know is when I got it, the programmer had installed Nero for the rw part. Now I don't have it and I don't have the disk for it. Oh well, I don't have that kind of cash. Never could get the damn thing to burn my pictures anyway. They weren't copyrighted or anything, just the normal my kids and family pics. The only thing it ever burned for me was my Bon Jovi Mix. Ironically, I feel it was worth the 400 I paid for the tower. 400 is general, I know it was more than but less than 500. Rambling again, bear with me, this is just how my brain works.
Anyway, I couldn't get the computer to even read the damn disk. So, I wiped the hard drive. Yes, I formatted it. Not that I'm a programmer or even know what I'm doing. I know enough to get me where I want to be. I'm glad I have DSL this time. Last time I had dialup and took 2 days to fully update xp. That was before reinstalling programs or even plugins for the browser. So, after I wiped and updated fully minus sp2 I put in the disk again. No Go! I almost broke the disk in half. So, I cheated. I restarted with the disk in. Tried run, browse, d:/, install.exe, you know the drill. NOPE. Tried mycomputer, d:/, install.exe. BINGO! Almost 15 minutes later I got it to install. Yeah, now my taxes are done. I didn't install or update anything until I got firefox. No way was I letting windows screw me again. It's homepage is about:blank. From there I only go to windows update. Never Again! So, after doing firefox and updates, I went about getting my blogs back in my bookmarks. Starting with what I listed on this page. I'm lazy. I didn't want to type. I have my entire bookmark list printed out, from copy/pasting last night, I just didn't want to type all day. That's where we ended up with the April Fools joke pre day what have you over at seven's. I got to admit I was doubtful. The pic looked a little 'off'. And I was hearing the harley. Didn't dawn on me to scroll down. I asked restless angel. then I went back to seven's and noticed the scroll bar on the right, you know to go down farther. I commented something like: that was mean. had to wipe my computer and was getting my bookmarks back, I think I inserted a smiley or something. You see, I had forgotten to set firefox to not load pictures unless they are on the originating site. If you run firefox, you know what I mean. If you don't you're pretty much clueless. I also have flash block, but for some reason I couldn't get the roadrunner to stop. It isn't supposed to load unless I tell it too. Oh well, I think I know the extension I downloaded that screwed that. I'll delete it once I figure it out. Me: I'm a trial and error learner. Back to the point, seven thought, I think from the comment on previous post, that his picture crashed my whole computer. I don't know that much about computers but I'm fairly sure a mere pic can't do that. Maybe crash the browser, but not the whole computer. So now, I get a fairly good laugh after the pain in the ass day I had. And I'm on seven's list. Cool. I thought I was boring, I guess the comment about porn caught his attention. Tina, should I point him to the guilty pleasures post? ROFLMAO. After haloscan and taking off the blog comments I lost the 'nice' comment you left there. I'm way too inhibited, but I'm getting better.
'Give Me Something To Believe In' by Bon Jovi is playing on my YIM, Launchcast, my station. Had to say that. It's awesome. Can you tell how obsessed I am with them. You know, I didn't like Jon Bon Jovi all that much when they split for a little while. Between him and Richie, they are magic. They speak to me. 'I'd live and I'd die for you, I'd steal the sun from the sky for you, When you breathe I wanna be the air for you'. Ok, I know that's not the right song, the name is escaping me at the moment. But that song is my most favorite and still speaks to me. Even though it talks about somebody leaving for good this time. I'm getting more random. Sorry guys. I think I'll start posting the lyrics to the ones that speak to me most. That's it for now, see ya when I finish messing round with the crap.
*Update: Here's the Guilty Pleasures Post! Tina thought it'd be a good idea for the readers. You know, that means you have to comment again. ;) |

I suppose a new post is in order. We're going random today. Woke up at 7am again. Just like the rest of the week. That's very early. I've been going to bed by midnight. Wow. Last night I was asleep by 10 something. I got sleeeep. Unusual. I saw something in my new Woman's Day magazine that may have helped me. It's for people who's brain won't shut off when trying to sleep. You're supposed to imagine the various thoughts on a chalkboard and erase them. Well, that didn't work that well, but trying to visualize that made the thoughts stop.
Went to Judy's blog yesterday. She was having a 'Oh, Woe Is Me' moment. That's not unusual for women, in my opinion. We have to have these once in a while. Usually when everything is going good. You worry over it, because you know what it's like not to be going good and you don't want to lose it. Hey, it's better to get it out than keep it in. It comes out whether you want it to or not. You can choose how it comes out. Have your 'woe is me' moment and cry for a bit, feel better later. Or, you wait and something triggers it and you just explode. You lash out and it isn't pretty. Crying is cleansing, don't knock it. I think this is what confuses men most about us women. Our need to cry, and inability to make them understand why we are crying. That's ok, we are 'mysterious'. Ha! Not really, women are simple creatures. We just seem mysterious, because we will tell them what we need and they don't understand so they don't 'hear' it. That's what makes us different.
I was watching Margaret Cho the other night trying to fall asleep. She's funny, I like her. She was talking about a guy who didn't understand why she wanted to come and he was whining he was left out. A man, the windblows and they're close. A woman, takes a bit more. We cannot detach our thoughts and emotions. You don't have to be 'feminine' to need a little more. It doesn't take me more than 2 minutes, but you have to KEEP MOVING your freaking hand. I mean come on, you know that when you are getting off, you must keep moving, why would it be any different for us. I am a simple creature, don't stop. That wiggle thing, what is that? I need movement, not wiggle. So close, yet AAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!! Sucks, working on it, trying to make sure not to deflate the ego and hurt feelings. That is the one thing I hate about porn movies. Guys get ideas from those. Um, hello! They are made by men for men, with men's ideas about what a woman wants/needs. No, that doesn't work on a real woman, and yes, she's faking it. In general I don't mind a porn movie, I just wish I could find one with a storyline. Yeah, I know it's porn and I'm expecting too much of it. A girl can dream, can't she?
My monsters are currently interested in the fish tank. We have one fish in it. Apparently they think it wants their toys, silverware, and paper. There's a sock in there now. They still don't take their nap when they're supposed to, but they do sleep anyway. We've been 'drawing'. For a 4yr and 2yr that pretty much means scribble. Mikel does make H's and A's. However, trying to get him to write any letter of the alphabet is like pulling teeth. He just won't try. He 'connected the dots' last night, traced some circles. Steven calls it daw daw. For a kid who wouldn't talk at 2yrs, he sure is talking now. Straws are on the refrigerator: staw up, staw up. I have that monkey from v-day it plays some music of course. Mokey up mokey up. He gets really excited and pushes that button and shakes his whole body, trying to imitate the dancing monkey. Mikel still says we left woody at the store. There isn't another holiday until xmas. Maybe he'll outgrow that. Easter is coming up, we hit the after easter sales last year. We have all we need for this year. I think we might try coloring eggs this year. We tried last year, but Mikel got bored. I have a glitter egg coloring kit, maybe he'll draw then I'll dye. That could be interesting. He'll scribble on a card I make in a week and a half. His daddy's bday soon. For a few weeks he'll be 10yrs older than me instead of 9. It's funny, when he's clean shaven he still gets carded for cigarettes and beer. He'll be 37.
I'm still reading my 3 books. This time I'm going slower, trying not to miss anything. The third reading is showing little hints I missed. I'll be ready to do my book report soon. I need a romance novel. I switched my booklist around. Zooba will be sending me a 3book collection by Nora Roberts, I think. She's really good at the racy parts. It's due to be shipped next week, I'll have it by the end of march.
Well, I think that's the end of my randomness. Have fun. |

*Note: I've had this one in the 'hole' for a bit. I'm done reading the books, but not ready for the book report. I think I need some more reading first. This'll help tide ya over.*
Accent: Depends on who I'm around. I pick up other's accents. When I'm around my uncles, I have a Minnesota accent. Normally I have a light hillbilly one. Except when I'm upset, then the Minnesota one comes through.
Bra size: 38 C
Chore I hate: Cleaning the bathroom. I don't do that. I will never do that.
Dad's name: I don't have one anymore!
Essential make-up products: None, I don't wear it.
Favorite perfume: None, I'm allergic to it, it makes me sneezy, and my nose drippy.
Gold or silver?: Silver, I'm allergic to gold. Gives me a rash like if you wear that fake stuff, itchy. I'm a really cheap date, not to mention cheap wife.
Hometown: Right freakin' here. Camdenton, MO. Never left.
Interesting fact: Lukewarm water is actually a lower temperature than most people think. If it feels at all warm to you, it's too hot.
Job titles: Mommy. When I was working: dishwasher, cook, app cook, line cook, busser, waitress. At every restaraunt I ever worked. I did it all. I even did it all in one night on a Saturday. During tourist season. Man I hate FTs! Mexican restaraunts only for the curious.
Kids: I have 2. Not having more. I got 'fixed'.
Living arrangements: Me, husband, 2 kids. Teeny tiny house, used to be a resort cabin, give you a general idea of the size.
Mom's birthplace: Winona, MN
Number of apples eaten in the last week: I don't eat them.
Overnight hospital stays: Just the 2 c-sections with my kids. I don't get sick.
Phobias: Spiders. Ladders.(not heights, ladders are wobbly)
Question you ask yourself a lot: Why can't I have parents that love me?
Religious affiliation: None. There is no god.
Siblings: 3 sisters. 1 half brother, 1 half sister. My mom is very fertile.
Time I wake up: 7, 7:30...kids don't apparently need sleep.
Unnatural hair color: Brown. Once in a while I dye it to get the red highlights out. My middle name is spelled Anne, so I got a lot of crap from that.
Vegetable I Refuse to Eat: I eat anything.
Worst habit: Procrastination.
X-rays?: Nope.
Yummy food I make: I'm a good cook, but I don't 'make' anything. I throw food in the pan, spice it and it tastes good. Recipes are guidelines, measurements are relative. :)
Zodiac sign: Taurus. Yes I am extremely stubborn. |