....everyone say AAAAWWWWWWWWWW! I was going through my photo albums for my other site and I found these. I'm only gonna put the one over there, but these were just too cute. Steven was always making weird faces. Mikel smiled all the time, well when he wasn't screaming anyway. I was going to put the 'potty' picture up, but I don't want perverts to think it's porn. Mikel was learning the potty training thing. One day I was checking on him and he was sitting on his little potty, underwear down and a magazine on his lap reading it. It was priceless. I never showed him that and his daddy doesn't do that. Don't know where he got the idea.

  I think that was the day we brought Steven home. He'd be about 3 days old.

  This was probably later on. I didn't move out of that chair for over a week. Had a c-section and moving hurt!

  I think Steven is somwhere between 8 and 12 months here.

  I think they are 18 months and 3 years.

  Scroll down to the very bottom of the page to see my most recent picture of the boys. Mikel is 4 and Steven is 2.

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Yes, I'm a woman and I said bitch. It's what I'm gonna do. Don't say you wasn't warned.
AAAHHH!!! Gonna have to start tearing my hair out soon. I wasn't posting yet last year, but I put together a family reunion for my husband's family. Only time they see each other ('cept those who live here...like within 10 minutes of each other) is funerals. Weddings...not so much. Mostly, he used to do restaraunt work. That means that the only vacation time he was ever allowed (unpaid of course) was during the middle of winter. By vacation, I mean laid off until spring. It's ok, the money in the summer made up for it. So, he never sees his family. He's got 4 brothers all within 20 minutes...and his sister too. The only one he actually talks to/sees is the one he works for. You get the idea. Anyway, they always express how much they'd like to get together for other than a funeral. DING! Can you see the light bulb yet? No idea what I was doing. I wanted hubby to be able to see his family, so I told them it was a family reunion. See...that way they would come. Oh...STUPID ME! All for it, virtually no help. (most of them really were busy) So...in 2 months I had invitations made, printed, mailed. Reservations, information for the resorts, hotels and activities around here. I spent 3 days just calling to see if anyone would have openings. It took 3 DAYS! Down here you need to make reservations 6 months+ in advance, or take the chance that you'll have nowhere to sleep. We have major tourism. Even the cheap, cheap hotels fill rather quickly, though they do NOT take reservations. I had to call people I didn't know. I had to write people I didn't know. AND worst of all....I had to actually MEET people I didn't know. Talk about trying really hard not to throw up for the 2 days everyone was together. (Call it extreme shyness.) So basically we, Karen and some others, cooked lunch, dinner, and someone brought donuts and called it brunch on sunday. Lemme tell ya, if I'd a known it was gonna be just donuts, I'd a cooked. I don't care if they are $50 donuts. A donut does not a brunch make! Breakfast + Lunch = BRUNCH! We were at a place with a pool. Live by the lake, so there was the intent to fish. Some of the guys went golfing, we have a crapload of those here. Then we had an 'auction'. I wanted to not go broke! So I told everyone to bring an item, anything they wanted, and we'd auction it off to pay for this one/raise money for next one. As we have never had any money, my contribution was the pain in the ass shit and using my programs to design invites and stuff. I also printed them out. It was really nice. Got some old photos and used those as a border for the invitation. Maybe I'll find one and put it up so you can see.

After all that, what do I do??!! VOLUNTEERED to do it again in 3 years. I am very determined to have a hell of a lot more involvement this time. Hubby's brother complained that we didn't have it catered. Finally, I says Look I can't AFFORD catering. Next time you can pay for it. They bitched about damn near everything. ASSHOLE. Unfortunately I still had to contact him today for family pics. So, so glad those people do NOT have this website address! I mean come on! You got to see family you hadn't seen in over 10 YEARS! What the fuck more could you want. I put the damn thing together with help from 1 person, who had a full time job, in 2 months with absolutely no idea of what to do. And no one wanted to suggest what to do.

Yeah, I'm starting on it now. I have 2 years. I'm gonna ride their asses, they just don't know it yet. SEE, see how far I'll go cuz I love my husband and want him happy?! Trust me, that's pretty much the only reason. Most of those people are still strangers. I am extremely shy and am naseous around large groups of people. I know a few of them, and I'm sure I'll hide out around them, kinda like I did last time. I set up a website for it. I wrote the fucking HTML. Yeah, that wasn't easy. I did cheat though, I used the CSS for my blog as a template and tweaked it. Changed damn near everything. Maybe I'll let ya'll see it. BEG ME! BWAAHAAHAAHAAA! (or however that goes, I gotta have my fun in here) I made an animated header. I made an animated bar for the sidebar. I found links to things like hotels and stuff in my area. I, the uncreative never know what to say, actually wrote words on the damn thing. I fixed pictures too. I'm done with it now. I had it running in one day. Today I validated the html and tweaked it. It's still not valid, but the only thing that isn't correct is the counter I have and the Guestbook I got. I couldn't find anywhere on the internet, imagine that, on how to write a guestbook. They got free ones, but no 'how-to's'. DAMN IT ALL!

Ok, bitching's over. Go mind your own damn business! (that was too easy, ya'll are suckers!)

HA HA HA!    http://searcy.digitalzones.com |

There are so many to choose from, I wasn't going to post any. However, this one was priceless. What am I talking about? Every Monday night, well nearly, Jay Leno does 'Headlines' on his show. For those who don't know, people mail in funny things from ads or newspapers and he shows the ones he likes and has time for. I could not pass this one up.


Usually by thursday, the headlines he did on Monday night are up on his website. You can also visit the link for the fruitcake lady. You really have to watch the videos to appreciate this little old lady. It won't let me play the video. If you have windows media player 9, not upgraded to 10, you can view them. Click on the pic and it'll take you to the headline page at the Tonight Show site. Check them all out! Guaranteed laughs. |

I'm going to sum up my last posts for ya'll.
*Note:I have a new banner now. Made it myself! I have a new featured graphic and put up a new pic at the top of the sidebar. The three top buttons are newer. I'll be changing my heading bars and <br /> bars. Check back over the next few days. I'll be making my self a little face lift.
As you can see, I like my bars/banners/buttons to blend seamlessly into my page. You can't see the borders, as I use the same background color on them as I have on my blog. Hell, I might change the firefox and thunderbird buttons too. I like it when the text and graphics pop, with the shadow under them. Amazingly enough, my animated files are very small. Photobucket only allows up to 250kb per file.
Links to all the animated graphics I made (they will open in a separate window/tab):
First trash for president button. Fairly crappy but it was my first try at animation and on a not so great program.
Animated Trash for president button. I'm happy with this one. You can see it by scrolling to the post below.
First animated header. When I made this it was too big, so I just resized the whole file. You can see the result. Some of the edges of the effects got cut off and it looks out of proportion. I redid the animation on this a lot. As you can see, it's not the one I'm using.
I don't need to give a link for the last one, because it's right up there at the top of the page. I could have made it wider, but I didn't want to. Despite the sheer amount of pics and graphics on here, I do try to keep the page and files fairly small. All of my graphics are less than 250kb. As far as I know, it loads quickly. Well, at least it doesn't drag waiting for the graphics before the text appears. I noticed on some of the other sites, no offense to the one who made the headers, the text loads first then the huge header loads and you get thrown back up. Because after the pic loads, it shoves the text down...A LOT! I usually don't mind it, just bugs me sometimes. That's why mine is small. Even with an itty bitty monitor, I'm sure the header would still fit in the page. I hate having to scroll right or left just to see a graphic or writing on a page. |

Even though I didn't really understand se7en's answer for me, I knew I needed a different program to animate what I wanted. I went to download.com and searched for animation programs. The one that seemed best, with reviews and all was Ulead GIF Animator 5. I get to try it free for 15 days. Program itself seems awesome to me. I've only made the one button/banner. Apparently you can export as a flash file also. It doesn't have a proper drop shadow or any bevel at all, but I can do that in my other program and import it into this one. I can import any pic I want to. And to buy it will only be $50. I've seen what major programs cost and this seems pretty cheap compared to them. The first little bit of the animation, I think, is a little choppy. Not real sure. I'll let ya'll have a look and get your opinion. Truth from ya'll please!
Again, the background of the button is black, so it won't look great on my maroon page. If I change my template to a black background, most of my buttons and banners will look crappy. If ya'll really need it to be black for an opinion, I'll change it for a couple days. You'll have to remember the rest of the page'll look funny.


Here's the url for the image:
http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y128/mickicas/trashanimated.gif
If one of you has a black background and want to put it on your site to see it. |

Well, only one button. I have the free photo plus program. I tried to get the little trashcan on there. For some reason I can't figure out how to put a pic into it. Those who know trashman understand what I mean by the trashcan. I also couldn't get the text in the place I wanted it. I was going to try staggering the separate words like I did on my buttons in the sidebar. For some reason it wouldn't let me. I'll have to get se7en to come by and help me figure that out. Maybe I need a not so free program to do what I want. If I can't even get that to do it, how am I ever gonna get my mickey header made? AAHHH! I was gonna make the flashing button for trash's site. His birthday is soon and he is demanding cards and gifts. LMAO!
The background of the button is black, as his site's background is black. It'll look a little funny here with my maroon background. After I get a little help figuring it out, I'll just provide the file and or html code for my photobucket if he wants to use it.
Without further ado, the animated button. (Remember it's my very first try)
*NOTE:Got my help and a new program. Made a new button, so I took this crappier one off the site.
HELP ME PLEASE!
Oh, for my newbies...(sisters)...on the sidebar click under Blog links, click on Doing Time. You should visit anyway. He's quite amusing. Today he's offering magic earrings for sale. They are Jack's spent bullets made into earrings. |

Sorry about the quality of the last pics. Next time I'll scan. I made another necklace, got some more beads and will be making a necklace to match my final anklet. I finally got the pattern, color and size I wanted.

I found the little dragonfly charms at Wal-Mart. I always think turqouise when I see them, so I loved the swirl beads I found. Had to get more before I could make the necklace to match. I did make one, but I didn't like it after it got put together.

I really like those black and white striped seed beads, but they don't look very good with the turqoise. I ran out of the smaller round turqouise beads that were on the anklet, so I had to use the black ones. I'll be taking this apart to make the new one. It's been a good lesson in how to make necklaces that 'match'.

I made these 2 little bracelets/anklets for the boys today. Hubby got me some more beads yesterday. I wanted lots of turqouise colors. One set was half red stuff. I don't like red, per se, so I asked the boys if they liked them. I pieced each one together, asked if they liked the way it was, then strung it. At first they were wearing as bracelets, now they want them to be anklets. It's a very good thing that their ankles are the same size as their wrists. Steven's is 5" and Mikel's is 6". They are very proud of them today. LMAO!
On the the games part. Really only one game. Digimon World 4. It's still fairly new, so I only found one walkthrough for it. It wasn't even complete. There are 4 stages and only 2 of them were in it. That's ok, you have to retest things to make sure they are accurate. I may just make one of my own. I beat it last night. The last boss fight wasn't just one boss, it was 3. Each one was a bitch to kill. I probably will make my own. I'll use Open Office for it I think. The best thing about that open source program, is you can make a document and export it as a pdf. On the things I have done, they look better once exported and opened as a pdf. You can get it at the Open Office website. It's free and better than Word, works and junk. Much easier to work than the microsoft office suite that I have. Yeah, I think I will do it. I needed a lot more info than I got, so I'll just mess with it myself.
On to the cartoons. I haven't talked about them lately. Full Metal Alchemist is now re-running Mon-Wed on cartoon network, as is Ghost in the Shell. Don't forget, it's adult swim so they are on around 11:30 central time. Saturday holds new adult swim cartoons. It's great, they no longer show the crap cartoons before the good ones. Inuyasha is on at 10, Samurai Champloo is 10:30, Paranoid Agent (I think that's the name), and reruns of Trigun. You get the idea on times. Samurai Champloo is awesome. If you like kung-fu type movies this is a great cartoon for you. Suffice it to say that they can do in cartoons that you cannot achieve in movies. Some of the dialogue is dorky, but the artwork is awesome. Paranoid agent I haven't figured out yet. The intro shows the entire cast, each alone, laughing. Not the sound of laughter, you can just see it. I think the thing is that someone gets under too much pressure, starts to have a mental breakdown and they get attacked by a kid with a gold hockey stick. Yeah, weird. This morning abcfamily was showing a W.I.T.C.H. marathon. I like this cartoon, it has magic. Not much else on though. I can't wait until 10pm. Gotta have my Inuyasha. I'm always disappointed if I miss an episode. The rest I don't mind. Demons, good and bad, a priestess, and lots of magic. Reincarnated priestess who travels back 500 years or so through a well and doesn't really know how to be a priestess. You can imagine how amusing this can be.
Well, off for now. Games to get to, things to make. |

...the last few days or so.
  
The pics aren't that great, but you get the idea. I found some nifty little beads and things to make me some anklets. It's much more than I ever did with my beaded necklaces. My new digimon game we got yesterday. It's frustrating me already. I'll be getting the walkthrough/cheat stuff later on today.
  
This is what the boys' daddy got for father's day. I know, it's a little dorky but he likes it. They are the boys' real hand and foot prints. It wasn't easy to get paint on their little hands and feet. Then get it on the shirt without them smearing it around. You can't see it in the pics, but you can see all the creases and lines in their hands and feet.
My oldest sister called me from VA, this weekend. They are doing great. (They are the ones who came home recently from Germany and they have both been discharged from the military.) She may be getting a job in a store security as a manager. She's had plenty of training, she was an investigator as an MP. He's trying to find a job as a police officer. I'm not sure but I think he just wants to be the little guy on the totem pole. Don't get the wrong idea about that, there's no shame in wanting to be the cop on the street. I hope he gets the job he wants.
Littler sister called me yesterday. They are pondering moving far away. I don't blame her. I understand that one. Her husband is a welder, he learned from his dad, he's good at it. He's pondering taking classes and then going to do underwater welding. Which we know from some of se7en's posts can be a bit dangerous. She wants to come over on her lunch hour. I don't know why she thought she needed to ask. She also offered to watch the boys after she gets off work, if I wanted to get a job a couple days a week. I'll think on that a while. I like the idea. I would rather have a job I enjoyed rather than one just to get out of my house. I wouldn't mind learning some computer programming. Just enough to be able to build my own computer. I just don't want to take classes. Teachers have always taken too long to teach something. I learn at a different rate than most people. I might do that. With online classes now, maybe they'd let you learn at your own pace.
Talked to my hubby the other day. It seems he didn't realize that when I told him he wasn't allowed to talk to my father about certain things that it was because the man would tell me how bad of a wife I was. Hmm. Keeps telling me to just put it behind me. It isn't that easy and he doesn't really have any idea. I told him again he needs to not push me. That's when I lash out. There are times when I know I have to do it, I just can't. So generally I do a few dishes, clean 1 area and that's it. So my house is generally in a semi-clean state. I have been in hiding a bit. I'm unsure whether I really needed that or not. Hubby was gonna take the boys to my fathers yesterday. He called over there and the bitch he married said my father beat the shit out of her the day before and he didn't live there anymore. I'll tell you my thoughts on this. I do feel a certain sense of satisfaction and she deserved it. I don't condone or wish anything like that on anyone, but her, I just feel a sort of glee, I guess. Does that make me a bad person? Not really. Taking into account both of them lie and exaggerate, I'm sure no one will ever know what really happened there. Also if he really did do that, she'd be in the hospital for a week. There's a difference between smacked or pushed and beating the shit out of someone. Actually, for both sides, I don't really care. I think it's funny, maybe a little poetic justice. Of course there is a possibility that he just wasn't there and she made it up hoping I would run over there or something. She is capable of that, she's done similar shit before. Oh well. |

So, yesterday I complained about housework. Today I will complain more, sort of. I vacuumed the house today. That always involves picking up damn near every toy my kids have, and moving damn near everything. I did the steps too. I never should have carpeted them. Still after 4 years the carpet gives up fuzz from hell. I'm think about telling hubby I want to rip up the carpet from the entire upstairs and put down either laminate or a 'false' wood floor. Sweeping and washing the floor would be easier. The food the kids drop from each meal alone has nastied my carpet. Even my shampooer can't get it all. Maybe I'll research and figure the price. It'd give me something to do. I remember now exactly why I hate vacuuming. No matter how cool the house is, I sweat like a pig. My hair is soaked by the time I'm done. Not to mention under my boobs. Yeah, I said it. I've always wished they were smaller and could be perky. I tell ya, I forgot about it for some reason today. There is a little trick. Put your deodorant underneath them. Works great! This is especially helpful to those who work in any kind of heat. They make women's deodorant to go on clear anyway. No one's gonna notice. I used to get a rash until one of the waitresses told me about that little trick. Remember ladies...before work or a trip in the summer use deodorant under your bra also.
Something else interesting I forgot about yesterday. On my local news...apparently there's a drug company that has come up with a vaccine to prevent some uterine cancers. Yes, I said prevent! Or maybe it was my Reader's Digest, I'm not sure. Anyway they are hopeful that it'll get approved by the FDA within the next 2 years. They aren't sure which ones it will prevent, but they are sure that it will prevent atleast the one caused by the papillovirus. That's an STD. But hey, if it can prevent even 1 kind, it has to be worth it. Maybe we're getting closer to a cure for some cancers. I'd say a vaccine to prevent even one kind should make us all more hopeful.
I'll leave ya'll with that positive note. |

All last week and whatnot I've been reading and playing FF9. I haven't been able to think of anything to write. Well and make it coherent anyway. I'll get to the worm thing in a minute. I have to say, I'm bored. Very bored. My usual pursuits just aren't doing it for me. How can you say that? The internet gives unlimited possibilities. Maybe burned out is a better word? I haven't even been going to all of my regular blog sites. A few of them yes, but not all. Of course this is just part of a cycle that I go through. I get bored with everything for a while and then pick it back up again. Hubby brough me home books from a garage sale. I must say, they were a pleasant surprise. They weren't trashy romances, but I did like them. However, I couldn't read them more than twice. That never happens. I reread about four times before I put them back down. I've found myself scanning quickly through the books. In less than an hour I've 'reread' a book lately. The process is no longer enjoyable. I hate it when I lose interest like that. Maybe I'm dissatisfied. Who knows. Don't get me wrong, I love my husband and my kids, I've just lost interest in my favorite hobbies. Being home all day I need my distractions. I go nuts without them. Of course I don't really want to go anywhere. I hate leaving the house. I think it's just that I like to feel that every once in a while, if I wanted to, I could. Maybe if this area wasn't so boring. I often wish we had a museum or zoo or something. No, getting a job won't fix that. I'd still be bored, but annoyed with all the things that go with a job. All I'm qualified for is restaraunt or grocery store work. Not that that's a bad thing. I really have no ambition per se. I remember when growing up, I touched on the idea of being either a mechanic or a doctor. Too much school needed for a doctor. I hate schoolwork, it's boring. I can't grasp the mechanisms of an engine, so that's out. If I had really wanted to do either of those things, I would have atleast tried. All I ever really wanted was to be a wife and mother. I wonder why that's looked at as a second class job these days. Too bad I'm a horrible housekeeper, I really do wish I could be better at it. Why clean it if it's gonna be trashed in 30 minutes or less? Logic, can't escape it.
On to the worms. Yesterday the kids got to go outside, it wasn't very hot out. The ground was wet and they wanted to dig a hole. Their daddy helped them with a shovel. They were fascinated with the earthworms. After Steven's wiggled he threw it. Then he grabbed another one. It was so cute. The kids can't go outside when it's past around 80°. Even in the shade, they break out into spots. I don't think their bodies process heat like they're supposed to. Even yesterday when they came back in they were hot enough to run a fever. Maybe they get it from me. I can't go out in 90° or hotter. I get sick. I can't do hot tubs either, nor hot showers. No doc has been able to explain that one. I don't think they believe me. It was suggested that they could be allergic to the sun. Only problem is they've been in the sun a lot. Only when it's too hot out do they actually spot after about 20 to 30 minutes. It looks like chicken pox when they do. They don't get itchy though.
I'm getting a little restless too. I want to leave this area. I've said it before. Now it seems that little sister may be leaving too. Talking about Texas, I guess. Her husbands a welder and he may go to school out there for underwater welding. I know, se7en had some horror stories, but hey whatever. Poor thing probably hasn't realized yet that if he does, he'll be gone for around 6 months at a time. Now with 2 small kids, that's going to be very hard. Maybe that'll make her take that final step to being all grown up. I don't think I'll ever get out of here. With a little luck, maybe we'll get a house with a decent yard. Hmm. |

I know, I know it's wrong to steal. I couldn't help it. I'll tell ya 'bout the books hubby brought me from a garage sale some other time. From the time I read the RA's list, meme, whatever I knew I was gonna take it. It was interesting unlike many of the ones you see out there. Plus, technically she gave permission!
(x)=been there, done that. LMAO!

(x) snuck out of the house...I don't know anyone who didn't do that when they were younger.
(x) gotten lost in your city...Lived here my whole life, and I can still get lost down a lake road!
(x) seen a shooting star
( ) been to any other countries besides U.S....I would like to go to Ireland. Grandma K is rumored to be decended from a King Niall something. I'm a princess! LMAO!
(x) had a serious surgery...technically my c-sections are surgeries but that's it
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas...I love pj's I wear my jammies all the time. Good thing they're men's jammies or people would notice
( ) kissed a stranger...Count this as part of my extreme shyness
( ) hugged a stranger
(x) been in a fist fight...She hit me first.
( ) been arrested
(x) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator...Still do sometimes, it's so fun!
(x) swore at your parents...You have no idea
(x) been in love
( ) been close to love...either I was or I wasn't. Technically there was my first love, an ass and then my hubby.
(x) been to a casino...That is fun, we go to KC every once in a while. The last time was the only time I didn't win any money, but he did.
( ) been skydiving
(x) skinny dipped
(x) skipped school...once, my friend needed to visit a docs office and I went. No one even called my house about it, I was such a good girl ;).
( ) seen a therapist
( ) done the splits
( ) played spin the bottle...I was an 'untouchable'. When I told my best friend, I lost my virginity she never beilieved it. The guy tried to brag too, and everyone laughed at him.
(x) gotten stitches...Knives and I never did get along
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour...Wouldn't that hurt?
( ) bitten someone
( ) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox...Had it twice!
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) crashed into a friend's car...Don't think I'm gonna tell this one.
( ) been to Japan
( ) ridden in a taxi...I don't even like cities, there is no way in hell I'd trust anyone I don't know to drive in one.
( ) been dumped...Only had one boyfriend before my hubby, and he was stupid enough to tell me it was a 'muffler burn'. Stupid man still regrets that. So does his dad, he likes to tell me he wishes I was his daughter-in-law.
(x) shoplifted...When I was very little, I wanted some gum, I guess.
( ) been fired
( ) had a crush on someone of the same sex
( ) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back...My dating life was non-existent, trust me, it's an odd thing.
( ) been on a date...I added this one. I really have never been on a date. Maybe I'll tell that one sometime.
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend...Sometimes you have to tell a friend what they want to hear, and maybe tell them what they need to hear later.
( ) had a crush on a teacher...There was a couple of cute ones, but I really had no sense of that kind of thing as a teenager.
( ) celebrated Mardi-Gras in new Orleans...I think it would be fun, but I'd never really go. I'm very shy.
( ) been to Europe
(x) slept with a co-worker...Story of my life. I'll tell that sometime. I've actually only ever had sex with 3 different men. And NO, not at the same time.
(x) been married
( ) gotten divorced
(x) had children
( ) seen someone die...I don't think I'd wish that on anyone
( ) had a close friend die
( ) been to Africa
(x) driven over 400 miles in one day...Actually have no idea how far 400 miles is. But I have driven for around 24 hours once. I think that should do it. It's an 8 to 12 hour drive to my grandparents in NE and I've done that several times.
(x) been to US...Live here
( ) been to Mexico
( ) been to India
( ) been on a plane...Nor will I ever. Car trip is sooo much cheaper
( ) seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show...Seen a couple of scenes, never made me wanna see it.
( ) thrown up in a bar
( ) purposely set a part of myself on fire...did stick my hand in a fryer once, accident though.
( ) eaten sushi...I don't care what anyone says, DISGUSTING! I hate the smell of raw fish, I'm sure trying to eat it would make me puke.
( ) been skiing/snowboarding
( ) met someone in person from the internet
(x) lost a child...I'm not telling this one again.
( ) gone to college/university
( ) graduated college/university
( ) fired a gun...nor will I ever. Baseball bat works just fine for me.
( ) purposely hurt yourself
(x) taken painkillers...technically. I'm thinking this one is more for illegal uses though. No I haven't done that.
( ) been intimate with someone of the same gender

For the curious, the barebones story of the lost child is in the about me post. It's the second or third post I ever did. Try the archives. Maybe I'll tell the process another time. Today is a good day, and I'd rather not cry. This one appealed to me when I saw it, I knew I'd steal it. There are so many that you see that have the standard stupid questions and this one doesn't. See ya'll. |

It has occured to me that not everyone would be interested in the how of my babies' births. I knew when I wrote it, but decided to have a post above it. If ya'll wanna read it, just scroll down a bit.
As ya'll know I keep track of who comes to my site. No, not names and stuff. I can kind of tell who visits and when, but the where they come from, the ip and if they comment. It's my curiosity thing. I don't have any totally outrageous how did they get here searches. I do have a couple of categories though. One of my counters, the one that shows numbers in the sidebar keeps track of each search that ended up here and it tells me what page they were sent too. On with the show!
--> I figure most would be interested in the porn searches that ended up here. Yep, I got a few. I guess some people really don't know how to search properly for it. LMAO!
I have several that were: winx club porn. I know how they got here. I watch winx club on saturday mornings and have mentioned it. Personally I don't think it would make decent porn. Then I have the really creepy one: 13yr old babysitter gits raped. Yes it's spelled gits. I really don't think they were searching for any other reason than for their perverted porn. That's just wrong! However they got here, because the only word I haven't used on my site is gits. I'm not that much of a hillbilly. I was talking about my nephew 13 maybe babysitting. In my pro-choice vs. life posts I mentioned rape(as possibly a legitmate reason for abortion). They actually searched my site for it. GROSS!
--> I got a lot of hits after posting the lyrics for Everything I Do by Bryan Adams. Some actually wanted it free...that's illegal now. Not much interesting there.
--> I did get some stupid people searches. Someone was looking for the beyblade song. They had the title too. If you know the title either search a lyrics site or go to the damn official website. It's jetix.tv.com or something. Also try abcfamily.com. I got one for: sauza tequila allergic reaction. You don't do a web search for that, you call the damn ER! Also as all tequila is made from the agave plant, I really don't think it matters what brand it was, that would also shorten your search a bit. Try webmd.com too. Then I have the: echo weedeater refill. I have no idea how they got here for that one. We do have an echo brand weedeater though. I consider this a stupid people search as you can go buy any kind you want from wal-mart. DUH! Try ace hardware or something. You really don't need the internet for that people. Cheaper without the shipping and handling. If you are looking for something to shop for, do a shopping search in google or yahoo. I know you can, I've done it before.
--> Funny, I got a couple of hits from: ft's in the ozarks. That is highly amusing. I don't know if they use the term 'ft' anywhere else but here. I don't know why anyone would search for 'fucking tourist' but it is funny!
I've gotten quite a few hits from people searching for lyrics in general. Hits from that one word. Maybe I'll make a button that will send those people to the site I use to find lyrics. http://www.lyrics007.com . |

First I'll tell you that Stevens word is sorry. He says 'oops yahee'. The h is silent. He doesn't pronounce s at all and only sometimes pronounces r.
I was thinking today and I thought I'd tell you about my having babies. Technically I don't really consider it 'giving birth' as I didn't have either boy naturally. On with the show.
Mikel was my first baby. He was 2 weeks late. He never dropped. My water never broke. I didn't go into labor. I was induced at 8am the morning of January 24 that year. The day before, they put some crap on my cervix to get it to soften. They put me on pitocin to start contractions and broke my water. It looked like a plastic tongue depressor, that thing they used to break the water. I was hooked up to the monitors. It's hard to believe that the baby's heartbeat is supposed to be around 160 to 200 per minute. Then you get to watch the contraction paper. It took a few hours for it even to start to curve at all. I decided that I didn't want to be hopped up on any kind of pain medication until I needed it. Around noon or so the doc came and I wasn't dilated yet. Stubborn baby! Talk about embarassing. Having a baby in the hospital is safer, yet still sucks. All the nurses look at the one place you don't allow almost anyone to see. Bad enough you do that once a year with your gynecologist. I have to tell you, I was pretty bored. It took a while to even get contractions that hurt. They did start hurting. There's this chart paper they use to print out of the machine. The worst I ever got was a half curve. This baby wasn't wanting to come out, and I wasn't waiting until he wanted to, to get the pain to go away. Fuck this shit, this was gonna go on for a long time. Pain meds, and now! They gave me morphine. It did nothing for the pain and made me throw up. The nurses seemed to think it was weird it didn't work. Probably my immune system. It's not like I ever expirimented with drugs to know what would work. The doc came to see me 4 times that day. Around 7pm he said I was only dilated to 2 and had been since noon. When I first got pain meds. They made me wait for the morphine to wear off before I could get something different. An anesthesiologist came up to give me an epidural. I have to say, with that big ass belly it's hard to bend around a pillow to arch your back and hold still too. I think I told him I was in love with him! LMAO! I'm sure that wasn't the first time he ever heard that one. So on with what my doc said. They had turned the pitocin drip up as far as they could. They can only turn it up for a while then they have to turn it back down. However that works. So he says we can do this some more and take the baby tomorrow or we can do it now. From examinations and whatnot he was fairly sure that baby was not coming out the natural way. Kid still hadn't dropped. What's supposed to happen is they drop and irritate the cervix causing it to thin and you to have contractions. Not my baby! I was bored with the waiting and unwilling to go through this till the next day and have a c-section anyway. So I said, lets do it now. I was lucky, I had a doc that wasn't gonna make me go through 3 days of pitocin just to see if the baby would come. It's not good for the baby to be dry for a long time anyway. Had to wait for the anesthesiologist to come again and numb me from the waist down. Wheeled into the little surgery they have on the OB ward. They shaved me, didn't expect that. I'm sure it wasn't easy for the nurses either as my belly wasn't easily moved. I remember Bill sitting in one chair and the guy with the oxygen mask in the other. He was very nice. Didn't feel anything but pressure. I did feel the knife, just wasn't painful. Weird. I also felt them put the baby on my chest before they cut his cord. Then I felt a heavy pressure on my chest. I asked what it was. Apparently they take the uterus out too, for a reason I forgot. Probably to remove the placenta. I know they showed me the baby, I just don't remember seeing him. I was drugged after all. I could hear him screaming. Babies are not happy to be out of that warm belly. He was the most adorable baby. Afterwards one of the nurses told me he probably shouldn't have been born naturally anyway. His shoulders were too big. Doc may have had to break one to get him through. Then the doc said I could have a natural birth next time...if it was a girl. Why? Because they are smaller at birth. Oh, and Mikel was 8lb 15oz and 19 inches long.
With Steven it was less of a big deal. Remember I hadn't had anything normal happen with Mikel. Since he was a boy, we scheduled a c-section 5 days before his due date. It was a Monday. On Sunday, the day before, I woke up and felt wet. So off Mikel went to his grandparents and we went to the hospital. I only lost my plug, the water didn't break. I didn't know what it was like for the water to break on it's own so, it's an honest mistake. Anyway, they said since I lost the plug, the water would soon break and labor by monday most likely anyway. Or worse, in the middle of the night. So the doc on call said we could do the c-section that day or wait until monday or the middle of the night, whenever the water broke. Screw that shit. I said lets do this. Then we can watch the Chiefs game. Yeah, I know having a baby or football game. The game started by the time we were in the little surgery room. Had to wait for the anesthesiologist a bit. So the whole time they are doing their thing, we are talking about the game. LMAO. What's the score, who'll win. I don't think they would have talked about it with me awake, but I was asking. I was having my tubes 'tied' too. So that took longer. All they do is snip about a quarter or half inch of them out. This way the egg never reaches the uterus, no more babies! The doc asked me if I was sure atleast 10 times. I was getting pissy about it. I understand why he asked but jeez, I signed a paper months ago. Maybe it's because I was 25. (It wasn't yet April.) Anyway, I think Bill got to watch the last half of the game. I was rather disappointed, I love to watch football on sundays. Being drugged doesn't go well with watching a game. This time, I was itching all to hell from the epidural. They gave me Benadryl for it. Needless to say, it didn't work. I was scratching my face into the next day. Steven's birth wasn't all that exciting. He was 8lb 0oz and 19 inches long. He was born on December 15.
I never did like being pregnant. I didn't like the birth thing either. I only wanted the end result. Some women like those parts too, I think they are nuts! So when someone wants to talk about the birth process, I am as ignorant as anyone who hasn't had any babies at all. I didn't have any of the normal things that come with it. Water never broke, no real contractions to speak of, my one labor was induced, baby never dropped, etc. If they wanna know how to deal with the after of having a c-section, I know that part!
You know, my kids never kicked anyone when they would touch my belly. They moved and kicked me. If their daddy put his hand on my belly they would reach out and just touch his hand. With my sisters, they just ignored it. It's funny my boys didn't have anything normal before their births. I knew Mikel was left-handed before he he was even born. He only used his left hand to touch. I know this only because I know what position he was in once he was to big to really change positions. Everything he's done since has been with his left hand. Steven hasn't decided which he his. He could be both. He uses both hands equally. Even with coloring and drawing and eating. |

Ok, since I been 'not on-line' aka 'distracted' nothing of interest to ya'll has happened. Yes, I lead a fairly boring life, with the exception of the crazy things my kids get up to. Like putting on daddy's long socks and on Mikel they went all the way up to the top of his legs and on steven they were past it. Or, they went outside and daddy made a fire to roast hot dogs and marshmallows. They dug a hole in the dirt. 'Mommy, I DUG A HOLE!' Like it was the greatest thing in the world. Or, yesterday daddy took them to a creek and they had water guns and splashed and tried to catch minnows, which their daddy put in the cooler that had ice in it and they were dead when he got them out. Boys had fun with their daddy. Mommy had nice quiet time inside where the nasty sinus crap can't affect her. Even with the best sinus medication this time of year my nose still runs a mile a minute. The sinus meds just keep me from having the stuffy nose, headache, and itchy eyes. Which I must say, they get so bad that some people like to ask me if I was 'smoking'.
With my inside time, instead of reading, I played final fantasy x-2 again. Last night I got all the episode completes and got the mascot dressphere. The only way to get it is to not skip the damn movies and a few extra things. That's why it took me 3 days to get where I want to be, instead of beating it in 2. Now I have to level up and do some extra goodies for 100% complete to get the perfect ending. There are 4 endings. This stupid not skip movies thing is irritating. I just want to see if any of the 100% guides in one play of the game are accurate.
*Steven's word of the day* yah-ee. Good luck with that one. |